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I don't think kids are made for introverts because imagine having low social battery just to come home to a kid who won't leave you alone. I could never.
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It wasn't a enimies situation,
It was an understanding of a misunderstanding.
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i found a new place to go swim and hardly ANYONE was there im so excited for what this could mean for me
#i do have to drive a good bit to get there but#it will be worth it if its like this every time#like fancy complex with a gym and indoor pickleball courts and a huge pool#yet it was a ghost town at 9 on a saturday?#this is my heaven#text#random#personal#introverted thoughts
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You think you're an introvert because you like being alone, but maybe it's not about solitude. Maybe it's about peace. Maybe it's the quiet you've fought so hard to protect. Maybe it's the safety of your own company, after being around too many people who made you feel like too much or not enough. You smile differently around people who bring you calm. You speak more. You laugh louder. You come alive in rooms where your soul doesn't shrink. You're not afraid of connection. You're just tired of surviving it. So don't confuse your boundaries with isolation. Don't confuse your quiet with disinterest. You're not closed off. You're just waiting for someone who feels like home, not a battlefield.
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My Voice Stops Where You Begin | ë°ěąí



âshe fell first, he fell harder.â - enhypen campus series
ŕ¨ŕ§ You fell firstâloud, chaotic, hopelessly into Park Sunghoon. He barely spoke, barely looked your way⌠until he did. And when he fell, he didnât just fallâhe crashed. âď¸ wc. 19.7k - quiet ë°ěąí x talkative yn | PT2
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It was the first day of university, and you were already running late. The strap of your bag was digging into your shoulder, your coffee was lukewarm, and you were half-jogging across campus trying to figure out where âHall B, Room 204â was. You burst into the lecture hall just as the professor was introducing himself, cheeks flushed, hair slightly out of place. A few heads turned. Some people smiled politely. One guy sitting in the back corner didnât even glance up.
You didnât notice him at first.
You were too busy trying to find an empty seat, preferably one not directly in the line of fire for first-day introductions. You settled in the middle row, somewhere between too eager and too aloof. You pulled out your notebook, took a sip of your now-offensively warm coffee, and let out a breath. Thatâs when your eyes wanderedâjust casually, no intention behind it. And thatâs when you saw him.
Back row. Headphones in. Face like stone. Tall, pale, a little slouched like he was already tired of being here. He wasnât paying attention to anything or anyone. Just staring ahead like the world around him didnât concern him in the slightest. And somehow⌠that made you look again. There was something about him that didnât match the rest of the room. Like he belonged somewhere else entirely. You didnât even know his name yet, but for some reason, your stomach flipped.
Over the next few weeks, you saw him everywhere.
And you were everywhere tooâbecause thatâs who you were. Loud. Friendly. Constantly surrounded by people. You liked talking, liked filling up space, liked being known. But every time you were in the same room as him, something shifted. Your words dried up. Your laugh softened. Youâd glance over at him and forget what you were even saying. It didnât make sense. You had no reason to feel nervousâhe wasnât even looking at you. But still, you felt it. That slow, creeping kind of curiosity. That quiet pull.
Sunghoon was tired. Everywhere he went, there was a shadow. And not hisâan annoying 5â3 one that followed him everywhere. You were always in his line of sight. Talking to someone, laughing too loud, waving your hands when you got excited about something. You were like color in an otherwise grayscale world. Yet she never spoke to him, not a single word. Just observed him from a distance. He noticed. He just didnât show it.
You didnât know it then, but that was when it startedâwhen you first fell. You didnât fall hard, not all at once. It was quiet. Subtle. The way your heart picked up a little when you spotted him in the dining hall. The way you slowed down just slightly when you passed him outside the library. The way you memorized his schedule without meaning to. You didnât know him. But you wanted to.
And that want? It grew.
You started timing your days around himânot on purpose, at first. It was just that your 10 a.m. lecture happened to be one he was in, and you figured out pretty quickly that he always got there five minutes early, headphones in, hood up if it was cold. He always sat in the same seat: back row, second from the window. You always sat three rows down, a little to the left, just enough to keep him in your peripheral vision. You told yourself it wasnât weird. People watched people. Thatâs what people did.
But you didnât watch everyone.
You watched him.
Sometimes youâd catch little things. The way he tapped his pen when he was thinking, or the way his fingers curled around his water bottle like he was grounding himself. You noticed how he always had one earbud out during lectures, like he didnât fully trust the silence. You wondered what he was listening to. You wondered what his voice sounded like when he wasnât mumbling out answers or mumbling âhereâ during attendance.
You had about a dozen opportunities to talk to him. You were you, after allâthere was always someone asking you something, pulling you into something. You werenât shy. You never had been. But when it came to him, you just⌠couldnât. Youâd freeze. Smile too quickly. Look away. And he never made it easierânever looked at you long enough to give you a window, never gave you a reason to think he even knew you were there.
But he did.
Sunghoon knew.
He wasnât stupid. You were loud. Impossible to miss. Like a radio that never turned off. Like summer in the middle of a dull winter. He noticed how you always seemed to sit near him, always looked like you were about to say something but never did. He told himself it was just coincidence. Just one of those things. But then it kept happening. Over and over. The same girl. The same smile. The same presence that made the air feel different.
And yeahâhe was tired. All the time. Not from school, not from work. Just⌠life. People. Noise. But then there was you. This exhausting, glowing thing that wouldnât leave him alone. You werenât trying to, but you were there. In his classes. In his thoughts. In the parts of the day where he didnât expect to feel anything.
And eventually, something cracked.
But not yet. Not then. Because you had already fallen. Quietly, completely, helplessly. And he hadnât even started.
You flopped onto your bed with all the dramatic flair of someone who had just survived a war, limbs sprawled out, backpack tossed somewhere near your desk.
âHes sooo fine,â you groaned into your pillow, voice muffled but full of conviction. âLike, actually unfair. How is someone allowed to look like that and not speak to a single soul?â From the other side of the room, Stella barely looked up from her laptop. âYou mean Park Sunghoon?â she asked, already sounding unimpressed. âI donât get it. Itâs like being attracted to a white wall.â
You lifted your head, offended. âFirst of all, heâs not a white wall. Heâs more like⌠a minimalist painting. You know, subtle. Mysterious. Expensive.â Stella snorted. âGirl, he blinked at you once and youâve been writing fanfiction in your brain ever since.â You threw a pillow at her. âYou donât get it. Thereâs just something about him.â
âYeah,â she muttered, catching the pillow and tossing it back. âSomething emotionally unavailable.â You didnât argue, mostly because she was right. But also because youâd already started thinking about what Sunghoonâs voice might sound like if he ever actually spoke to you. You rolled onto your back, staring up at the ceiling like it might hold the answers to your Sunghoon obsession. âDo you think he even knows I exist?â
Stella let out a long, exaggerated sigh. âYou sit three rows in front of him. You laugh like a Disney side character. Youâve accidentally tripped twice walking past his seat. If he doesnât know by now, heâs either legally blind or willfully ignoring you.â You groaned again, dragging a pillow over your face. âKill me.â
âHeâs cute, sure,â she continued, typing something on her laptop, âbut he literally said âno thanksâ when a girl asked him if he wanted to join their study group. No thanks. Like he was declining an email subscription.â You laughed, muffled by the pillow. âHe probably has a really soft voice. Like⌠barely audible. A whisper. Velvet.â
Stella gave you a look. âYou need help.â
âI need him.â
She shut her laptop. âNo, babe. You need to talk to him. Say something. Anything. Even just âhi.â Break the curse.â You peeked out from under the pillow, heart already doing gymnastics at the thought. âBut what if he looks at me?â
âThatâs the whole point.â
You stared at her, horrified. âAbsolutely not. Iâd combust on the spot.â
âThen enjoy your silent crush from the shadows, weirdo.â You flopped again, dramatically. âFine. But if I die from unspoken romantic tension, itâs on you.â She rolled her eyes, but smiled. âPut it in your will, Romeo.â
The next morning, you woke up with a mission: to maybe say something to Sunghoon today. Nothing crazy. Not a full sentence or anything. Just a word. A syllable, even. A polite âheyâ if the stars aligned and your voice didnât betray you.
You spent an extra five minutes picking your outfitâsomething casual but not too casual. Like, âI didnât try, but also I absolutely did.â Stella noticed, obviously. âYouâre wearing the âHot but Iâm Not Tryingâ outfit,â she said through a mouthful of cereal. âIs today The Day?â You shrugged, grabbing your bag and pretending you werenât already sweating. âIt might be.â Stella clapped slowly. âGodspeed, soldier.
By the time you got to class, your nerves were starting to spiral. Sunghoon was already there, sitting in his usual seatâhood down, headphones in, fingers tapping against the desk to whatever he was listening to. He looked unfairly good in a black hoodie and gray sweats, like someone had just pulled him out of a moody K-drama. His side profile was so sharp it shouldâve been illegal.
You walked past him, fully prepared to say something, anythingâHe looked up. Briefly. Just for a second. Eye contact.
And thenâback down. Like nothing happened. Like he didnât just send your soul into orbit with a single glance.
You speed-walked to your seat and nearly collapsed into it, heart pounding like youâd just run a marathon. You turned around just enough to glance back at him. Still headphones in. Still unbothered. Still so fine.
You opened your phone under the desk and texted Stella:
Me: I made eye contact. I think Iâm pregnant.
She responded instantly.
Stella: omg congrats on the baby!!! do u know if itâs a ghost or a shadow????
You had to bite your lip to stop from laughing out loud. You looked up one more time. Sunghoon hadnât moved. Still in his own world. Still completely unreadable. But you sworeâsworeâthe corner of his mouth twitched. Almost like a smile. Almost.
You spent the entire lecture pretending to take notes while your brain went into overdrive analyzing that one almost-smile like it was a sacred artifact. Had it really happened? Or were you just so far gone that you were starting to hallucinate expressions on his face that werenât actually there? You tried to sneak another glance at him halfway through class, just to confirmâbut he was fully zoned out again, one hand lazily spinning his pen, the other resting against his jaw, headphones still in. Unbothered. Untouchable. Beautiful in the way that made your brain short-circuit if you stared too long.
When the professor dismissed everyone, you packed up slower than usual, hopingâprayingâthat the universe would throw you a bone. Maybe heâd glance your way again. Maybe youâd make accidental eye contact and heâd hold it this time. Maybe heâd say something. Or you would. But, as always, Sunghoon stood up, slung his backpack over one shoulder, and walked straight past you like he hadnât just been living rent-free in your brain for the last three months. You sighed so loudly, the girl next to you looked concerned.
The time you got back to your dorm, you threw the door open with unnecessary force. Stella looked up from her desk. âWell?â You dropped your bag and collapsed onto the floor like the tragic lead in a college rom-com. âHe looked at me again.â
She blinked. ââŚAnd?â
âAnd I felt it in my knees, Stella.â She closed her laptop, looking both amused and vaguely concerned. âYouâve got it bad.â
You rolled onto your back, staring at the ceiling. âI think Iâm in love with someone Iâve never spoken to. Do you think they make support groups for this kind of thing?â
âI think itâs called delusion, girl.â You dramatically flung an arm over your forehead. âWell, Iâm the president then.â She tossed a granola bar at you. âEat something and touch grass.â
You caught it without looking, sighing. âI swear he almost smiled.â
âUh-huh.â
âI think that counts as a conversation.â
She snorted. âYeah, and I think you need help.â You took a bite of the granola bar and chewed in silence, thinking about the half-second twitch of his lips.
It was barely anything. Almost nothing. But to you? It was everything.
Later that night, you were curled up in bed, halfway through rewatching a comfort show youâd seen a hundred times, when the ping of a new email lit up your phone screen. You glanced at it lazily, expecting another boring newsletter or some campus event you werenât going to attend.
But then your eyes locked on the subject line:
Group Project â PSY214: Social Behavior & Perception
Your heart stuttered. That was the class. The class with Sunghoon.
You sat up so fast your blanket fell off your shoulders. Opening the email, you scanned the body of the message like your life depended on it. The professor had assigned a project to be completed in pairsânot groups, pairsâand said you could choose your own partner, but you had to submit the name by the end of the week.
The universe had officially spoken.
You practically flew off your bed and ran out into the common area where Stella was on the couch, face half-buried in a bowl of popcorn, watching some true crime documentary with the volume way too high.
âSTELLA.â You skidded to a stop in front of her, completely out of breath. She jumped, a kernel of popcorn flying out of her bowl. âJesusâwhat?â You gripped the back of the couch like your soul might detach from your body. âGroup project. Pairs. In psych. With Sunghoon. This is it. This is the sign. Iâm going to do it. Iâm going to ask him.â She blinked at you. âWait, youâre gonna speak to him?â
You nodded, eyes wide with some mix of fear and determination. âI have to. Iâve been given a golden opportunity by the universe. A gift. An invitation to break my curse of romantic cowardice. This is my moment. This is my origin story.â
Stella stared at you for a second. âYouâre such a weirdo.â
âI know. But you know what else I am? A people person. Iâve never had trouble talking to anyone. Itâs literally my specialty. I can charm strangers in line at Starbucks. I can talk my way out of a parking ticket. I can talk to Sunghoon.â She raised a brow. âOkay, but can you do that without short-circuiting and running away like a squirrel?â
You narrowed your eyes. ââŚIâm working on it.â
Stella smirked and popped another piece of popcorn into her mouth. âWell, you better work fast. Because every other psych major with eyeballs is probably already plotting the same thing.â You dramatically flopped onto the couch beside her, clutching a throw pillow. âUghhh. Why is he so fine and so quiet? Itâs a dangerous combination.â
âOh, speaking of dangerous,â Stella added casually, eyes still on the screen, âDid you hear Heeseung and his girlfriend got into a huge argument? Like it was full on hands on.â You blinked, thrown completely off track. âWaitâwhat? Are you serious?â
âYep. My lab partner saw them holding hands outside the music building. She said it looked⌠not casual.â You groaned and buried your face in the pillow. âOkay, one emotionally unavailable man at a time, please.â Stella laughed. âYouâre doomed.â You peeked over the pillow and mumbled, âMaybe. But at least Iâll go down trying.â She tossed a piece of popcorn at your forehead. âGodspeed, loser.â
And with that, your fate was sealed. Tomorrow, you were going to ask Park Sunghoon to be your partner. Or die trying.
The next morning, your alarm went off at an ungodly hour, and for once, you didnât hit snooze. You shot out of bed like you had somewhere important to be. Like this was a mission. Because it was.
You had exactly one hour to mentally prepare yourself for what you were about to do: walk up to Park Sunghoonâaka human silence, aka your academic soulmate and secret crushâand ask him to be your partner. Easy. Simple. Nothing to be afraid of. Youâve talked to professors. Youâve hosted campus events. Youâve literally done improv in front of strangers. But now? Your hands were shaking because you might have to say five words to a man who barely speaks.
You stood in front of your mirror, practicing.
âHey, wanna be partners?â
âNo, thatâs too blunt.â
âHi! So I was wondering ifâew, no, too formal.â
âYo.â
âŚAbsolutely not.
From the other side of the room, Stella, still wrapped in her blanket like a burrito, cracked one eye open. âIf you rehearse any longer, heâs gonna graduate before you speak.â You ignored her. âIâm manifesting smoothness, okay?â
âYouâre manifesting cardiac arrest.â
By the time you got to class, your heart was already tap dancing in your chest. Sunghoon was in his usual seatâhood down, headphones in, all black hoodie, unreadable face. You stared at him for a full three seconds before you remembered you were standing in the middle of the aisle like a lost tourist. You snapped out of it and shuffled to your seat three rows down, pulse racing. You needed to catch him before class started. That way, if he rejected you, at least you could die quietly while the lecture played.
You kept glancing back at him, trying to time it right. He was scrolling through his phone now, completely detached from the world like he was on another plane of existence. Okay. This was it. You turned around. Took a breath. Stood up. Walked up the steps to his row like you werenât having an internal breakdown. He looked up the moment you reached him. Direct eye contact. Your brain blanked for a full second.
ââŚHey,â you said, voice not nearly as stable as youâd practiced.
He pulled one earbud out, eyebrows raised slightly. âHi.â
HI. HE SPOKE.
âUm. I was just wondering if you wanted to be partners for the psych project?â
There was a pause. Not long, but enough to make your confidence start to wither.
Then he replied, voice low and quiet, âI already asked the professor if I could work alone.â
Oh.
Your brain short-circuited for a second. You hadnât prepared for rejection. Especially not this calm, direct kind that somehow wasnât even rudeâit was just⌠final.
âOh,â you said quickly, trying not to sound as mortified as you felt. âCool! Yeah. Thatâsâtotally fine.â
He didnât say anything else. Just nodded once, almost politely, and put his earbud back in.
You turned around and walked back to your seat like someone had just unplugged your entire personality.
When you sat down, you stared at your notes without actually seeing anything. Your ears were hot. Your hands felt weird. You blinked a few times like maybe you could reset the whole moment.
You grabbed your phone and typed furiously.
Me: abort mission. i asked. he said no. he already asked to work ALONE. ALONE stella. like a damn lone wolf. i just got REJECTED by someone who doesnât even TALK to people.
Three seconds later, the reply came:
Stella: âŚdamn
Stella: okay but lowkey thatâs so on brand for him
Stella: also that wasnât even personal he probs wouldâve said no if a supermodel asked
You slumped forward onto your desk.
If this was your origin story, then this was the flop arc.
And you were going to need emotional CPR before class even started.
Class ended with the usual rustle of backpacks and the scrape of chairs, but you sat frozen in your seat for an extra ten seconds, staring at the back of Sunghoonâs head like it had personally betrayed you. He was already standing up, slinging his bag over one shoulder, cool and quiet as ever. Like he hadnât just shattered your plans and self-esteem into a thousand quiet little pieces.
But something in you snapped.
No.
You were done being shy. Done rehearsing conversations in your head and letting the moment pass you by. You were not letting Park Sunghoon disappear into the hallway without saying another word.
You jumped up, heart racing, and took a deep breath. âOkay,â you whispered to yourself. âWeâre doing this. Weâre not going to shrivel up and die from embarrassment this time.â
You rushed up the stairs after him, catching him just before he reached the door. âSunghoon.â
He stopped, turning to look at you, that same unreadable expression on his face.
You inhaled. âYouâre gonna work with me.â
His brows lifted, just slightly, caught somewhere between surprise and confusion. âI told youâI already asked the professor if I could work alone.â
You crossed your arms and raised your chin a little, tapping into your most extroverted, confident selfâthe version of you that could hold entire conversations with strangers and talk her way out of anything. âThen un-ask him.â
He blinked.
âIâm serious,â you continued, because if you stopped now youâd lose every ounce of courage. âYou donât even know me. What if Iâm secretly a genius? What if we make the best team ever and win that bonus point thing he mentioned?â
Sunghoon tilted his head slightly, still quiet. Still unreadable.
You pointed at him. âYou donât have to like group work. But youâre gonna work with me.â
For a long second, he just stared at you.
The faintest twitch at the corner of his mouth. Not a smile, not really. But something. He scoffed. Not in a dramatic, mean way. Just⌠soft. Dismissive. Like you were amusing. Or ridiculous. Or both. And then he turned and kept walking, like you hadnât just declared war on his solo-project lifestyle. You blinked. Oh, hell no. You shoved your bag higher up your shoulder and stormed after him.
âSeriously?â you said, catching up to him in two strides. âYouâre just gonna walk away after that?â He didnât look at you. âYeah.â
âYouâre not even gonna consider it?â
âNope.â
You huffed, falling into step beside him. âWhat is your deal with working alone? You allergic to people or something?â He side-eyed you. âYou talk a lot.â
âThank you,â you said flatly. âThatâs literally the only reason I might save your grade.â He stopped walking. You stopped too, nearly crashing into him. He looked down at youâtall, pale, sharp-featured and quiet, like some sort of academic vampire who hated sunlight and group activities.
âWhy are you so determined?â he asked finally, tone somewhere between annoyed and curious. You met his eyes, chin lifting. âBecause Iâve never had someone ignore me this hard and still live in my brain rent-free. Itâs annoying. So if I have to suffer through thinking about you all semester, youâre at least going to suffer with me. Equal pain.â His brows lifted just slightly.
âAnd,â you added quickly, âI donât lose. So youâre working with me. End of story.â
Sunghoon stared at you for a beat longer. Like he couldnât decide if you were insane or just persistent. Then he shook his head. And kept walking. But this time? He didnât say no. You were halfway across campus the next day, trying to decide between skipping your next lecture or just emotionally disassociating through it, when you heard someone say your name.
Quietly. But definitely.
You turned around and almost tripped over your own feet when you saw himâSunghoon. Hoodie, backpack, hands shoved in his pockets. Standing awkwardly like he wasnât entirely sure he shouldâve called out to you in the first place. Your heart did a full somersault. âHi,â you said, maybe too brightly.
He blinked at you. âHey.â
There was a weird beat of silence, filled with campus noise and your loud inner panic.
Then he shifted on his feet and muttered, âCan I get your number?â
Your brain exploded.
Was Park Sunghoon asking for your number? You stared at him, mouth slightly open, and he just stood there looking painfully neutral, like this was the last place he wanted to be.
âAre youâwait, are you asking me out?â you blurted, already regretting every second of your life.
His eyes widened just the slightest bit, like youâd accused him of a federal crime.
âNo,â he said flatly. âFor the project. So we can⌠communicate.â
âOh my god,â you whispered, eyes going wide as the heat crept up your face. âRight. Duh. Obviously. Obviously.â
He looked vaguely uncomfortable, like he wanted to disappear into his hoodie. ââŚYeah.â
You scrambled to pull out your phone, nearly dropping it in your panic. âHereâyeahâjust put yours in. Thatâs easier. Iâll text you. So we can⌠project. Collaborate. Academic synergy.â
He didnât reply. Just took your phone, typed in his number, and handed it back wordlessly.
You stared down at the contact:
Park Sunghoon
(no emoji. no extra letters. just cold, clinical formality.)
ââŚCool,â you said, trying to recover some semblance of dignity.
âOkay,â he mumbled. Then turned to walk away.
You watched him go, mentally facepalming so hard your soul cracked a little.
Your phone buzzed a moment later.
Unknown Number: itâs sunghoon
Unknown Number: let me know when you want to start
You sighed and saved the contact with a little ice cube emoji, because it felt fitting.
Sunghoon Park: cold exterior, barely speaking⌠and you were so in over your head.
Later that night, you were laying on your bed, staring at the ceiling, your phone balanced on your chest like it owed you something.
You had been so sure he was asking you out. So sure. For 0.3 seconds, you saw your entire future flash before your eyes: couple study dates, matching outfits, walking hand-in-hand through campus while he pretended not to hate the PDA. The works.
But nope.
Just⌠strictly professional group project business.
You groaned and rolled over, smothering your face into your pillow.
From the other side of the room, Stella looked up from her laptop. âWhat now?â
âHe asked for my number.â
Her eyes lit up. âWhat? Shut upâdid he really?â
You turned your head slightly, muffled. âFor the project.â
She stared. âOh. Ew. Okay.â
You rolled onto your back again, holding your phone up like it personally betrayed you. âI thought he was asking me out. I literally said, âAre you asking me out?ââ
Stella burst out laughing, no remorse. âYou didnât.â
âI did. And the way he looked at me? Like I just offered to burn down the library. He was so uncomfortable.â
âTo be fair,â she said through a cackle, âhe always looks uncomfortable.â
You sighed dramatically and stared at his text again.
let me know when you want to start
Simple. Distant. No smiley face. No unnecessary words. He probably sat there thinking about whether three words was too many.
You started typing back:
Me: hey! free tomorrow after 2 if that works? also we could meet at the libâ
Then deleted the whole thing. Too friendly.
Me: hi. library tomorrow at 2?
No. Too dry. You looked like him.
You finally settled on:
Me: hey! are you free tomorrow after 2? we could meet in the library to go over the project?
And then hit send before you could overthink it again.
You dropped your phone beside you and groaned. âThis is the most effort Iâve ever put into a man who literally doesnât speak.â
Stella didnât even look up. âHonestly, thatâs kind of your type.â
You buried your face in your pillow again.
Somewhere, your phone buzzed.
Sunghoon: ok
Sunghoon: 2 is fine
Two words. No punctuation. Classic. And yetâyour heart did a full stupid little flip anyway.
You were ten minutes late.
Not fashionably late. Not oh-no-the-bus-was-slow late. Panicked, sweaty, tripping-over-your-own-shoelaces late.
The worst part? You couldnât even blame traffic. You had literally just stood in front of your closet for fifteen minutes debating what shirt said Iâm smart enough to do a group project but also hot enough to be a distraction.
By the time you rushed into the library, breathless and clutching your tote bag like a life raft, you spotted him immediatelyâtucked into a table near the window, surrounded by neat little piles of notes, black zip-up hoodie, dark jeans, laptop open, posture perfect.
And glasses.
You froze.
You had never seen Park Sunghoon wear glasses before. They were thin-rimmed and kind of crooked on his nose and, for some infuriating reason, stupidly hot.
He glanced up the second he noticed you, gaze sharp behind the lenses. You opened your mouth to say something, anything, but all that came out was a weird, out-of-breath sound that wasnât even a real word.
ââŚHi,â he said, tone flat, but not mean. Just very Sunghoon.
âHi!â you replied too loudly, stumbling as you dropped your bag into the chair across from him. âSorryâIâI swear I left on time, but I forgot my charger and then I spilled, like, half a smoothie on my notes, and then I couldnât find the entrance for some reason even though I come here all the time. It was a mess. Iâm a mess. But hi!â
He blinked slowly, adjusting his glasses. âYouâre here now.â
You nodded quickly. âI am. Present. Mentally, emotionally, physicallyâkind of.â
He didnât say anything. Just looked at you with that same unreadable face, like he couldnât decide if you were hilarious or exhausting.
You shifted in your chair, suddenly aware of how loud your breathing sounded. And your heartbeat. And how you had no idea what to do with your hands. Why did your fingers feel weird?
âSo,â you said, pulling out your laptop and trying to act like your brain wasnât short-circuiting over the glasses situation. âPsych project. Brainstorm time. Right.â
âYeah.â
He was already back to typing something, eyes flicking over his screen, and you realized he didnât even seem fazed. Like this was just⌠normal.
For you, it was a crisis.
You glanced at him from the corner of your eye. How did he look so composed? So chill? So academically intimidating with that stupid zip-up and those stupid glasses and his stupid, quiet, mysterious vibe?
ââŚDid you always wear glasses?â you blurted before your brain could stop you.
He paused. Looked at you.
âOnly sometimes,â he said simply.
âOh.â You looked back down at your screen. âCool. Theyâre⌠you know. Fine. Cool. Very⌠smart.â
A long pause.
âThanks.â
You wanted to sink into the floor.
It was going to be a long group project.
You had just started to feel semi-normal.
Sunghoon was being quietâshockâbut not cold. You were actually getting into the flow of outlining the project. He listened when you talked. Nodded. Occasionally gave input. It wasnât comfortable exactly, but it wasnât the awkward apocalypse you were expecting, either.
And for a brief, fragile second, you thought this might be the first chill moment you shared alone.
Naturally, the universe had other plans.
âOooohhh, what do we have here?â
You looked up just in time to see three people you had never met stroll up to your table like they owned the entire library. One was tall, with dark eyes and a mischievous smileâJay, though you didnât know that yet. Next to him was a golden-haired guy with a killer grin, arm slung around girl. Jake. And Jakeâs Girlfriend, apparently.
Jay gave you a once-over, then looked at Sunghoon like heâd just caught him in a crime. âWe just thought we should come check out Sunghoonâs first date with a girl.â
Your eyes widened. You choked on air.
Sunghoon didnât even flinch. âItâs not a date.â
Jakeâs girlfriend snorted. âAt least heâs honest about it not being a date. Unlike my first date.â
Jake groaned beside her, dragging a hand down his face. âHow many times did I apologize for that?â
You blinked. âWaitâwhat happened on your first date?â
She smiled sweetly. âHe made a bet with his friends that he could get with me. You know, classic teen rom-com behavior.â
âOh my god.â Your jaw dropped.
Jake threw up his hands. âAnd I said I was sorry! I was reckless and stupid.â
âYouâre still stupid,â she muttered, but leaned into his side anyway.
Meanwhile, Sunghoon just sat there, jaw clenched, radiating quiet murder.
Jay leaned closer, ignoring the tension. âOh, but she definitely wants it to be a date,â he said, nodding at you with a teasing glint in his eye.
You choked again. âIâWhatâNo?!â
Sunghoon shot him a warning glare. âJay.â
Jay held up his hands, smirking. âAlright, alright. Just saying. She looks real invested in this collaboration.â
Before you could combust, another voice burst into the mix.
âGUYS.â
You turned in your seat just in time to see a boy with bleached blond hair, glowing skin, and a phone clutched in one hand come skidding to a stop at your table.
âHeeseung and his girlfriend are having another full-on screaming match outside the student center,â he announced like it was breaking news. âItâs getting dramatic. One of them might throw hands. Or a smoothie.â
He finally looked at you. âOh, hi. Whoâs this?â
âSunoo,â Jake sighed, âthis is⌠uhâŚâ
âYN,â you supplied, feeling very out of place.
âSheâs Sunghoonâs group partner,â Jay said, emphasis on partner, like it was code for something else.
Sunooâs eyes lit up. âOoooooohhhhhh.â
Sunghoon let out a sharp breath through his nose, practically vibrating with annoyance. âWhy are you all here?â
âChecking up on you,â Jay said cheerfully. âYouâre weird about new people. We had to make sure you werenât malfunctioning.â
Jake nodded. âAnd to be fair, you are being weird.â
âIâm literally sitting,â Sunghoon snapped.
âOkay, yeah, but like. Sitting with a girl,â Sunoo said, raising his brows. âA cute girl. You see why thatâs suspicious.â
You stared at your laptop, cheeks burning. The chaos was unreal.
Jake shook his head. âAnyway, back to the dramaâhow long are Heeseung and his girl gonna keep doing this?â
Jakeâs girlfriend crossed her arms. âMaybe donât make bets about girls and they wonât cuss you out on campus.â
âBabe,â Jake whined, âagain, I said I was sorry. Let it gooo.â
Sunghoon stood up abruptly, chair scraping against the floor.
âWhere are you going?â Jay asked.
âAnywhere thatâs not here,â he muttered.
You jumped up after him, trying to gather your stuff. âWaitâSunghoon!â
He didnât slow down, and you had to basically jog to catch up, face still on fire. Behind you, Jay called, âHave fun on your not-date!â
And Sunoo added, âSheâs cute! You better not screw it up!â
You didnât dare look back.
You finally caught up to him halfway down the library stairs, breath short and hands still fumbling to shove your laptop into your bag.
âSunghoonâwait,â you called, your voice echoing slightly in the stairwell.
He didnât stop, but he did slow down just enough for you to trail beside him instead of behind like some kind of out-of-breath gremlin.
You walked in silence for a second. Just the two of you. The air was heavy, thick with secondhand embarrassment and the faint smell of old textbooks.
ââŚTheyâre your friends?â you asked, trying to keep your voice casual. Not that anything about the last five minutes had been casual.
âUnfortunately,â he muttered.
You bit your lip, half-smiling. âTheyâre⌠a lot.â
He didnât say anything, just kept walking, hoodie sleeves tugged over his hands and jaw tight like he was trying to bite back actual rage.
After a beat, you added, âI wasnât expecting company. Or, you know, being accused of trying to date you in front of half your social circle.â
He stopped suddenly, turning toward you.
You skidded to a halt too, your breath catching a littleânot just from the speed, but the way he was looking at you. Glasses slightly tilted, dark eyes unreadable, lips parted like he wanted to say something and hadnât quite figured it out yet.
Then, very quietly, he said, âYou didnât⌠seem mad.â
You blinked. âWhy would I be mad?â
His brows drew together. âAt them. For saying all that. Teasing you.â
âOh.â You shrugged. âI mean, yeah, I was dying internally. But itâs fine. You didnât say it. You just⌠looked like you wanted to strangle all of them.â
âI did.â
A short silence.
And thenâyou laughed. Soft and sudden, the sound surprising even yourself. âWell, thanks for that.â
His gaze flicked to you, something small softening in his expression. âThey werenât supposed to show up. I didnât⌠want to make you uncomfortable.â
You stared at him for a second. Because that? That was the most heâd said to you since the day you met. And also maybe the most thoughtful thing anyone had said to you all week.
ââŚYou didnât,â you said, voice quieter now. âUncomfortable, I mean.â
His eyes searched yours for a second, like he didnât quite believe you.
Then he looked away. âGood.â
You both stood there for a momentâjust outside the building now, the cold air nipping at your cheeks, the sun sliding low behind campus buildings.
You finally broke the silence, tugging your bag higher on your shoulder. âSo⌠should we try again? Like, library, take two? Maybe somewhere your friends wonât crash?â
He hesitated.
Then, finallyâfinallyâhe gave a small nod. âYeah. Okay.â
You smiled. âCool. Iâll bring snacks this time.â
He glanced sideways at you. âI donât eat while I study.â
âOf course you donât,â you said, sighing dramatically. âYou probably highlight in perfect straight lines too.â
ââŚSometimes.â
You rolled your eyes. âGod. Youâre such a nerd.â
But he didnât say anything to that.
Just that same tiny twitch at the corner of his lips.
And for the first time since you met him, you didnât feel like you were chasing him.
You felt like maybeâjust maybeâhe was meeting you halfway.
Sunghoon shouldâve known they wouldnât just leave.
He exhaled slowly as he stepped out into the cold, the library door thudding shut behind himâand there he was.
Sunoo. Leaning against a bike rack like heâd been waiting for him since the dawn of time. His bleach-blond hair glowed under the dying sun, and his jacket was entirely too thin for the temperature, but he looked completely unbothered. Smug, even.
The second he spotted Sunghoon, his whole face lit up. âFinally. Took you long enough.â
Sunghoon gave him a flat look. âWhy are you still here?â
âBecause Jay and Jake went to get smoothies, and I wasnât about to sit through their disgusting couple energy. Plus,â Sunoo grinned, âI wanted to ask you something.â
Sunghoon didnât stop walking. âNo.â
âYou didnât even hear what it was!â
âI already know itâs something annoying.â
Sunoo skipped a few steps ahead to block his path, walking backwards now, eyes wide and suspiciously innocent. âSo⌠whoâs the girl?â
Sunghoon rolled his eyes. âGroup project partner.â
Sunoo squinted at him. âRight. And Iâm totally just here to study Heeseung and his girlfriendâs dysfunction like a science experiment.â
âSheâs not my type,â Sunghoon muttered, looking away.
âYou donât even have a type.â
âExactly.â
Sunoo hummed like he didnât buy that for a second. âSheâs cute.â
Sunghoon didnât say anything.
âAnd funny. And a little chaotic. But in a fun, like, âI talk to my plants and lose my keys twice a dayâ kind of way.â
Still, no response.
Sunoo leaned in closer, eyes glittering. âDo you like her?â
Sunghoon stopped walking. Just stared at him, unreadable.
Sunoo smirked. âOkay, okay. Iâll leave you alone.â He started to turn, then glanced back. âActuallyâwait. Can I have her number?â
Sunghoon blinked. âWhat?â
âJust to be friends! Gosh. You think youâre the only one allowed to befriend hot, unbothered chaos girls?â
âYou met her for like two minutes.â
Sunoo grinned. âAnd thatâs all I needed. I have a sense for people. And sheâs my kind of people.â
Sunghoonâs jaw tightened.
âSheâs part of our circle now,â Sunoo added, sing-song. âYou brought her in. Thereâs no going back.â
âI didnât bring her in,â he muttered.
âYou literally let her follow you out of the library like a lost puppy.â
âI did not.â
âYou didnât stop her.â
Sunghoon looked away.
Sunoo smiled, victorious. âSo? Her number?â
Sunghoon glared at him. âAsk her yourself.â
Sunoo squealed dramatically, spinning around on his heel. âOh my god, I will. Iâll text her right after I follow her on Insta. This is the start of a beautiful friendship.â
Behind him, Sunghoon muttered under his breath.
ââŚWhat was that?â Sunoo called over his shoulder.
âNothing.â
But it wasnât nothing.
Because for some reason, the idea of Sunoo texting you made something uncomfortable twist in his chest.
And he didnât want to think too hard about why.
You sat on your bed that night, still in your jeans and hoodie, your bag half-unpacked on the floor, laptop open but untouched, and brain moving at 300 miles per hour.
Your phone buzzed.
Stella:
Did you die or did Sunghoon kiss you or did you die because Sunghoon kissed you. I need updates.
You groaned, flopping onto your back and lifting your phone above your face.
Me:
None of the above. His friends ambushed us mid-study session and fully acted like I was his girlfriend. In public.
Stella:
WAIT. Which friends. Are they hot. I need names and Instas.
You sighed dramatically.
Me:
Jay. Jake (with his girlfriend). And some guy named Sunoo who said Heeseung and his girl were screaming again.
Also I think Sunoo might be my new best friend. He glows. Like??? How.
Stella:
JAY? As in soccer boy Jay?? Jake the business major? THEY WERE ALL THERE? NOOO I WAS ON THE WRONG CAMPUS TODAY.
Also Sunooâs TikTok skin care routine is literally witchcraft Iâve seen it.
You laughed quietly to yourself, phone clutched to your chest for a second as your smile slowly faded into something more thoughtful.
Because, honestly?
Youâd expected today to be awkward. Maybe awful.
You did not expect to feel⌠kind of okay.
Actually, more than okay.
Sure, you wanted to sink into the earth and die when Jay said you looked like you wanted it to be a date.
But then Sunghoon had looked actually annoyedâfor you. And when you caught up to him, he didnât walk away. He didnât ignore you. He let you talk, let you tease him. Even cracked a tiny smile that made your entire brain short-circuit.
He didnât seem like the type to say much. But he listened. And he noticed things. Like whether you were uncomfortable. Like how loud his friends could be.
That mattered more than you expected.
Your phone buzzed again.
Stella:
Okay but real talk. Did you feel anything? Like when you were sitting next to him? Being in his aura or whatever?
You stared at the screen for a second, then slowly typed:
Me:
Yeah.
He wore glasses.
Iâm ruined.
Stella:
âŚThatâs fair.
You rolled over, kicking your legs up and burying your face into your pillow with a groan. This wasnât supposed to be a thing. You were supposed to get through the semester, maybe stare at him from afar a few more times, graduate with dignity.
Now? Now you were saving a contact in your phone as:
Park Sunghoon (Glasses = my downfall).
And you had a very bad feeling this was only the beginning.
The next morning, you got to class early. Like painfully early. Which was weird, because you were usually a chronic just-in-time kind of studentâjust enough hustle to not be late, never early enough to raise suspicion. But today? You practically skipped through the lecture hall doors, iced coffee in hand and a hopeful delusion bouncing around in your head like a movie trailer.
You spotted him right awayâSunghoon, in his usual seat near the window, hoodie pulled over his head like a warning sign, eyes glued to something on his laptop. Stoic. Brooding. Beautiful in that intimidating, I-read-whole-textbooks-for-fun kind of way. You took your seat beside him without hesitation this time. Victory, right? You were learning. Evolving. No more fear. Just controlled chaos and denial. He glanced at you as you sat. Said nothing. But you were used to that by now. Instead, you sipped your coffee and let your mind wanderâstraight into fantasyland.
Scenario One: You two finish the project early. Miraculously early. And somehow, that leaves just enough time for a casual, post-study hangout. Maybe heâs like, âI know this cafĂŠ down the street, wanna go?â And you act totally chill even though youâre internally combusting, and then one drink turns into two, and then next thing you knowâ
Scenario Two: He starts talking more. Like, actually talking. Maybe even laughing. You learn heâs got this dry, sarcastic sense of humor. The glasses make a comeback. He pushes them up while making some off-hand comment about people-watching or Nietzsche or whatever he reads for fun, and you just melt.
Scenario Three: He thanks youâlike, really thanks youâfor making the project more tolerable. You say something witty. He says something slightly flirty. Thereâs eye contact. And maybe, just maybe, he asks you to hang out again even after the project is over.
You blinked, realizing you were smiling into your coffee like an idiot.
ââŚWhat.â You jumped a little. Sunghoon was staring at you now, one brow raised behind his lashes, suspicious. You cleared your throat. âWhat?â
âYou were smiling like you won something.â You coughed into your drink. âOh. Um. No. Just⌠thinking.â His eyes narrowed slightly. âAbout?â You hesitated. You. Your stupid hoodie. Your stupid perfect jawline. How good your hands looked when you typed. Us getting married in a cozy bookstore-themed wedding. ââŚThe project,â you lied.
He stared for another second, then looked back at his screen like he didnât believe you but also didnât care enough to argue. Your cheeks were burning. You turned toward the front of the room, pretending to listen to the professor. But in your head? The fake scenarios were still playing. And in all of them, Sunghoon never scoffed and walked away again.
You werenât even sure how you got on the topic of astrology.
One second, you were casually mentioning your moon sign, and the next, you were ten minutes deep into a rant about compatibility charts, birth time accuracy, and how Mercury retrograde was definitely to blame for your chronic inability to meet deadlines.
You were in itâhands flailing, iced coffee half-forgotten, your voice carrying across your little corner of the library like a talk show guest who forgot she wasnât micâd.
âAnd Iâm not saying itâs always accurate, but likeâcome on, Iâve never met a Leo moon who didnât want attention in the most dramatic wayââ
Then you looked at him.
And he was watching you.
Not glancing. Not politely nodding. Not half-focused while typing something on his laptop.
No.
Park Sunghoon was sitting completely still, chin slightly tilted, dark eyes locked on you like he was seeing youâreally seeing youâfor the first time.
And it hit you all at once: the weight of his gaze. The fact that he hadnât interrupted you once. The way his expression wasnât annoyed or bored or even confused.
Just⌠quiet.
Focused.
Curious.
Your words trailed off mid-sentence. You felt your mouth go dry.
âI, umâŚâ you stammered, blinking hard and glancing down at your hands. âSorry. I was rambling again.â
A beat passed.
He didnât respond right away. You peeked up.
He was still looking at you.
For someone who rarely spoke, he really didnât need words to fluster you.
You quickly turned back to your laptop and muttered, âWe should probably get back to the outline.â
The silence that followed felt heavier than usual, but not in a bad way. Just⌠different.
Like maybe something had shifted. And he noticed it too.
And for once, you were the quiet one.
One week later.
You didnât know when it happenedâif it was the third study session or the way he started waiting for you outside class without saying anything, just casually lingering like he wasnâtâbut something had definitely shifted.
He still wasnât talkative, not by any stretch. Park Sunghoon was still the same quiet, unreadable guy who typed like he was solving a national crisis and stared at his laptop like it offended him. But now, sometimes⌠he looked at you like you were the more interesting problem.
You noticed it during Wednesdayâs library session. You were scribbling notes, brain on overdrive like usual, when you cracked a dumb joke under your breath about Freud being the original red flag. And heâSunghoonâactually smirked.
Not a full laugh. Not even a chuckle.
But a smirk. Like his mouth twitched and everything.
You were so shocked you nearly dropped your pen.
Now, seven days into being partners, your nerves still spiked whenever he looked directly at you. Whichâterrifyinglyâhe did more often now.
Today, though, you were running late. Again. Youâd had a 10-minute breakdown over whether your hoodie looked âaccidentally cuteâ or âaccidentally homeless.â When you finally rushed into the same table by the window, Sunghoon was already thereâhoodie up, laptop open, long legs stretched out like he owned the entire row.
You skidded into the seat across from him, breathless and messy as usual. âHi! SorryâI didnât mean to be late, I got distracted because I was reorganizing my playlist and then I realized I accidentally put a breakup song on my walking-to-class mix and it ruined my whole moodâanyway, Iâm here!â
He blinked up at you.
âYou always talk like you havenât taken a breath in ten minutes,â he said flatly.
You opened your mouth to defend yourselfâthen paused.
Because even though his words were dry as ever, there was a glint in his eyes. A little tease. The ghost of amusement.
You grinned, emboldened. âYeah, well, someoneâs gotta fill the silence between us.â
He didnât argue.
Instead, he pushed your coffee toward you like heâd been holding onto it.
You blinked. âWait. Did youâ?â
âYou always get the same one,â he said, shrugging, eyes flicking back to his screen. âYou were ten minutes late. I figured.â
Your stomach did a weird flip.
It was a tiny thing. Barely even a moment. But it was the first time heâd done something unpromptedâsomething thoughtful.
Something soft.
You sat down slowly, hands warming around the cup.
Before, you were a loud girl with a crush and no courage.
Now, you were still loud. Still spiraling. Still catching yourself staring when he wasnât looking.
But somewhere in the middle of library study sessions, awkward silence, and shared glances that lingered a little too longâ
Maybe he was starting to fall too.
Later that night, you were back in your dorm, lying on your bed with your laptop propped on your stomach and your Spotify playing in the background. You were supposed to be finalizing the last few slides of the presentation, but instead, you were deep in the Notes appâtyping out possible conversation starters like a 14-year-old girl prepping for a first date.
Which it wasnât, obviously.
It was just a group project. A graded group project. Which meant this mild obsession with Park Sunghoon was wildly unprofessional.
Still, your brain didnât care.
He remembered your coffee order.
He smirked at your joke.
He bought your coffee.
You flopped your head to the side with a groan and rolled over, phone slipping out of your hand. âIâm losing it.â
From across the room, Stella didnât even look up from her phone. âYou lost it when you called his handwriting sexy.â
âI never said that out loud.â
She looked at you now. âBabe. You whispered it during your FaceTime call with me while you were editing your shared Google Doc.â
You grabbed a pillow and launched it at her. She caught it with a grin and tossed it back.
âSo?â you said, burying your face in it. âIs it crazy to think he might kind of like me too? Just a little?â
Stella shrugged. âI donât know. He bought your coffee. Thatâs a huge deal for an introvert. It took me three months to get my introvert ex to say good morning first.â
You peeked over the pillow. âYou think heâs soft under all that broody quietness?â
âI think heâs already soft,â she said, nonchalant. âYouâre just the only person loud enough to poke through it.â
You blinked.
Huh.
It was a weirdly sweet thought.
You stared at the ceiling for a long moment, your brain doing its usual rom-com spiral. Imagining more coffee. A casual movie hangout after your project was done. Him smiling at you again. Him taking off his hoodie and you realizing he was even hotter underneath it
Your phone buzzed.
You nearly flipped off the bed grabbing it.
Park Sunghoon: Do you want to meet earlier tomorrow? Libraryâs crowded after 5.
Your heart skipped. He messaged you first.
You scrambled to reply, fingers shaking just a bit.
You:Yeah totally! I can do 3?
Three dots.
Park Sunghoon: Cool.
You smiled down at your phone. Not a date. Not even flirting, technically. But still⌠something. And it was enough to make your chest feel a little lighter as you sank back into your pillow, grinning like a complete idiot.You were definitely being dramatic.
It was just a study session. Just Sunghoon. Just your project partner.
And yet here you were, standing in front of your mirror like you were about to walk into a k-drama confession scene.
Youâd tried to be casual about it at firstâgrabbed your usual hoodie, pulled your hair into a messy bun, told yourself today would be like any other work day. But then youâd caught your reflection and froze.
Nope.
Not today.
Today, something in your brain snappedâthe part that remembered the way Sunghoon looked at you last time. The way he handed you your coffee without saying much but still said everything.
So now here you were, smoothing down the pleats of your white skirt, the fabric light and soft, bouncing just slightly with every step. Youâd tucked in a pastel pink topâsimple but flattering, cinched at the waist, with a soft neckline that somehow made your collarbones look like they belonged in a Pinterest moodboard.
You curled your hair into soft waves, taking your time with each section like you were preparing for a dateâwhich again, it wasnât. But your hair looked good, and that was reason enough.
Then came the makeupâjust enough to brighten your face. A little concealer, a swipe of blush, dewy highlight, and a soft pink gloss that matched your shirt perfectly. Not too much. Not trying too hard. Just enough to feel⌠confident.
You stepped back and looked at yourself. Cute, but not overdone.
Like you just happened to roll out of bed this way. Like you totally didnât spend an hour prepping for a guy who still hadnât said more than five sentences in a row to you.
You grabbed your bag, gave yourself one last look in the mirror, and nodded. He wonât even notice, you told yourself. But your heart still raced anyway.
You arrived at the library fifteen minutes early.
Which was insane. You were never early. You were barely ever on time. But today, you found yourself practically floating through the entrance with way too much pep in your step for someone heading into a two-hour grind session.
You chose a table tucked near the windows, sunlight filtering in just enough to give you that natural-glow effect you hopedâjust a little bitâheâd notice. You pulled out your laptop, opened your notebook, sipped your iced vanilla latte like it was some kind of calming potion and not a way to keep your hands from fidgeting.
Three minutes passed. Then five. Then eight.
And just when you started to spiral, you saw him. Black hoodie, dark jeans, headphones around his neck, glasses on. Glasses again? Was he trying to kill you?
He walked up without a word, dropped his bag in the seat next to you, and sat down like this was the most normal thing in the world.
You swallowed.
âHey,â you said, trying to sound breezy. âYouâre early.â
âSo are you.â
You blinked. He noticed?
âI didnât think youâd notice,â you said, smiling before you could stop yourself.
âI notice things,â he said, not looking up from unzipping his backpack.
Your brain promptly short-circuited.
You sat there a moment, trying to reboot your internal monologue, but he didnât say anything else. Just pulled out his laptop, adjusted his glasses, and tapped a few keys like this was just another Tuesday.
You cleared your throat. âSo⌠should we get started?â
He nodded, eyes flicking to the screen, and you did your best to focus, even though your heart was doing pirouettes in your chest.
Ten minutes in, he finally glanced sideways.
His eyes skimmed over youâyour top, your hair, the soft gloss on your lipsâand then right back to the screen.
Nothing in his expression changed.
But.
You swore the tips of his ears turned just the slightest bit pink.
It all happened so fast.
One second you were typing away, trying to figure out how to transition from your statistics slide to Sunghoonâs part about correlation, and the next, your phone buzzed with a message that made your stomach drop to the floor.
Mom:
heyâdonât panic. heâs stable. but your dadâs in the hospital. car accident. heâs asking for you.
The panic part, unfortunately, arrived immediately.
You gasped. Shot up from your seat like youâd been burned.
Sunghoon looked up, brows furrowed. âWhatâsâ?â
âIâI have to go,â you blurted, already shoving your laptop into your bag with shaky hands. âMy dadâheâs in the hospitalâI have toââ
You didnât finish the sentence. Didnât think to explain. Didnât notice your phone sliding between the cushions of the library couch when you stood too fast. You were gone before Sunghoon could even stand.
He sat there for a while, blinking after you, confused and more than a little startled. But when the shock wore off, he assumed you just needed time. He figured youâd text when you got the chance.
Except⌠you didnât. Thirty minutes passed. Then forty-five.
The seat next to him stayed empty. And despite the hum of the library, all he could hear was the faint echo of how your voice cracked when you said hospital.
He exhaled slowly and reached for his phone.
Pulled up your contact. Youâre just checking. Thatâs it, he told himself.
He tapped the call button. And then frowned. Because your phoneâthe one he was callingâwas⌠right there. Left on the couch like a forgotten piece of clothing, glowing faintly with the light from the screen. Missed calls. Texts. And one lockscreen wallpaper of you and your roommate pulling dumb faces at the camera.
He reached for it, reluctantly.
And thatâs when he saw it.
Right there at the top of the screen, when the missed call alert faded away, was his name.
Park Sunghoon (Glasses = Downfall)
He stared at it. And blinked. And stared again.
Because it wasnât just Park Sunghoon. It was âGlasses = Downfall.â
He slowly leaned back against the couch, completely thrown off, a mix of confusion and God, was that amusement?âstarting to crawl across his face. Of course you saved his contact like that. Of course. He pressed his lips together, unsure if he was more concerned about you⌠or the way his chest actually tightened when he realized your phone was still here, and you werenât.
Sunghoon was still sitting there, completely frozen, your phone in one hand and that ridiculous contact name burning a hole in his brain, when a familiar voice cut through the air like a ray of chaotic sunlight.
âOh my God, is that her phone?â
Sunghoon looked up just in time to see Sunoo appear at the end of the aisle, eyebrows raised and lips already curled into a knowing smirk. His blond hair was perfectly styled, skin glowing like he drank actual light for breakfast, and he was strutting over like he owned the entire building.
âI knew something felt off,â Sunoo continued, stopping in front of the table. âShe never leaves her phone anywhere. Last time she lost it for five minutes she had a full existential breakdown and accused Stella of cursing her.â
Sunghoon blinked, still not sure what to do with the phone in his handâor the smirk that kept trying to tug at the corner of his own lips.
âShe left in a rush,â he muttered, eyes flicking back down to the screen. âFamily emergency.â Sunooâs expression shifted instantly, eyes softening. âWaitâseriously? Sunghoon nodded once. âShe said her dadâs in the hospital. She didnât say much. Just left.â
âShit,â Sunoo said, frown pulling at his mouth. âThatâs⌠crap. Do you know which hospital?â Sunghoon hesitated. âNo. I tried calling. Thatâs when I realized her phoneâs still here.â Sunoo sighed and slid into the chair across from him, tapping his own phone screen rapidly. âIâll call Stella. She might know something. Or at least be able to get in touch with her mom or something.â
Sunghoon gave a slow nod, leaning back again as he watched Sunoo work through his contact list like a professional. The tension in his chest refused to ease, even as help arrived.
âOh, and by the way,â Sunoo said casually, glancing up with that glint in his eye. âYouâre totally blushing.â
âIâm not.â
âYou are.â Sunoo grinned. âGlasses equals downfall? I mean, really? I shouldâve known.âSunghoon cleared his throat and looked away, ears tinged unmistakably pink.
Sunoo smirked. âSo⌠are we finally admitting someone has a little crush?â
âShe left her phone,â Sunghoon muttered.
Sunoo leaned forward, resting his chin on his palm, completely unfazed. âMhm. And youâre staring at her lockscreen like itâs a live stream. Just admit it, Hoonie.â
âIâm not calling you that.â
âYou didnât say no to the crush part.â Sunghoon sighed deeply, resting his head back against the seat as Sunoo grinned like heâd just won a game no one else knew they were playing. Silence settled again for a beatâuntil Sunooâs phone lit up.
âStellaâs typing,â he said, glancing down. âIâll keep you posted. You just sit there and keep pining dramatically.â
âIâm notââ
âSure, sure.â Sunoo winked. âKeep telling yourself that, Mr. Downfall.â Sunooâs phone buzzed, and he glanced down.
âStella says she doesnât know which hospital either,â he said, brow furrowed. âButâand I quoteââI know her lockscreen passcode because we are married spiritually.ââ Sunghoon blinked. âThatâs⌠specific.â
âShe says itâs her birthday. Not Y/Nâs. Hers.â
Sunghoon stared at the phone in his hand. âWhy would it be Stellaâs birthday?â Sunoo smirked. âBecause Y/N is a simp. Obviously.â Sunghoon inhaled, then exhaled like this was already too much for one day. Still, he typed it in. The screen unlocked.
Sunoo immediately leaned over the table like it was a hot gossip vault opening in real time. âOkay, try checking her notes. Or her location app. She has a tracker on her parents, I swearâoh wait.â
He stopped. Sunghoon had paused, fingers hovering over the screen. Because the phone didnât open to the home screen. It opened to her messages. With Stella.
And the last message sitting right there at the top read:
Y/N:
sunghoon is wearing glasses today i need the ground to take me out respectfully
Sunghoonâs jaw ticked.
He didnât scroll. He shouldâve scrolled. But he didnât need to. Because Sunoo saw it tooâand gasped like heâd just seen a scandal unfold on live television. âOh my GODâscroll up. Scroll up right now.â
âIâm notââ
âGIVE ME THE PHONE.â
Sunghoon sighed in defeat and scrolled up two or three lines, just enough for Sunoo to snatch the phone halfway through and start reading aloud in a dramatic whisper:
Y/N:
i swear to god iâm trying to focus
but his glasses. HIS GLASSES STELLA
why did nobody prepare me for this man to look like a kdrama male lead in a hoodie and glasses combo iâm actually in pain
he said âcan you pass me the chargerâ and i almost proposed right then and there
guys I swear his shoulder look extra broad today
Sunoo smacked the table. âSHE ALMOST PROPOSED.â Sunghoon covered his face with one hand, voice muffled. âPlease stop.â
âOh, Iâm never stopping. Youâre officially her villain origin story. I canât breathe.â
Sunghoon reached across the table, retrieved the phone with a blank expression, and locked the screen again. âWeâre supposed to be figuring out which hospital her dadâs at.âSunoo, still giggling, waved him off. âYeah, yeah, Iâm texting Stella for the tracking app now. But I need you to know that she was down so bad she literally contemplated death-by-glasses. Thatâs⌠thatâs poetry.â
Sunghoon didnât respond. But the tips of his ears were pink again. And this time, he didnât bother trying to hide them.
Sunghoon was halfway zipped up, bag slung over one shoulder, already mentally mapping the route to the hospital when Sunoo crossed his arms and tilted his head with a dangerous gleam in his eye.
âYou know,â he said slowly, âyou could save yourself so much embarrassment if you just admitted it.â Sunghoon didnât pause. âAdmitted what.â
âThat you like her.â
âI donât.â
âOh?â Sunoo snatched Y/Nâs phone off the table with a mischievous grin and unlocked it again. âThen I guess Iâll just keep reading her adorable little breakdowns about your glasses, and your hoodies, andâoh lookâyour âannoyingly attractive handwriting.ââ
Sunghoon turned just enough to give him a warning look. âYouâre making that up.â
âSexy handwriting,â Sunoo repeated dramatically, scrolling. âSexy. She called your handwriting sexy. Who even notices that in a group project? Oh waitâY/N does, because sheâs clearly unhinged about you andâoh my God.â
He stopped.
âOh my God. She drew little hearts around your name in her notes app.â Sunghoon ran a hand down his face. âSunoo.â
âI will stop,â Sunoo said sweetly, âif you admit you like her.â
âI donât.â
Sunoo stared at him. Sunghoon stared right back, completely unreadable, posture cool and relaxed like he hadnât just heard you almost died over the way he wore his glasses. The silence stretched. Finally, Sunoo groaned and dropped back into his seat, tossing the phone down like it offended him. âUgh. Youâre so boring.â
Sunghoon didnât respondâjust adjusted the strap on his bag, eyes flicking toward the exit. But if Sunoo had been paying attention to the way his fingers curled slightly against his side, or how his ears had gone just a shade pinker again⌠He mightâve known that silence wasnât denial.
Sunghoon left the library with your phone in his pocket, steps quiet but fast as he crossed campus, hoodie drawn up just enough to shadow his face. He didnât want to be noticed. He never did. But today especiallyânot with your words still echoing in his head like some cursed audio loop.
âkdrama male lead in a hoodie and glasses.â
It was ridiculous. And yet⌠somehow, it made the corners of his mouth twitch in the stupidest way. He forced it down, gripping the strap of his bag tighter.
The hospital wasnât far. He caught the next bus downtown and kept checking your phone every few minutesânot that there were any new messages. But maybe⌠maybe Stella would text. Or your mom. Or you.
He shouldnât be this tense. He wasnât your boyfriend. He wasnât even your friend, really. Just a group project partner who somehow got dragged into your world like a moth to a sparkly, chaotic flame.
But stillâhe needed to know you were okay.
And despite everything, despite the teasing and the denial and the unread messages, he didnât leave that hospital lobby until someone told him where to find you.
Meanwhile, back in your hospital room, you were staring at the blank TV screen, hand curled loosely around a paper cup of vending machine coffee that tasted like burnt regret.
Your dad was stable, resting just down the hall. You were gratefulâmore than gratefulâbut youâd never felt so unmoored. Like you were floating outside of your body.And on top of it all⌠your phone was gone.
You groaned quietly and buried your face in your hands. âOf all days,â you muttered. Your soul was actively leaving your body just thinking about it. The door creaked open.
You lifted your head, expecting a nurse, maybe your mom.
Insteadâthere he was. Park Sunghoon. Black zip-up, jeans, perfect hair, and those same glasses that had quite literally rearranged your brain chemistry. Holding your phone. And looking⌠weirdly hesitant.
âHey,â he said quietly.
Your eyes widened. âYouâwhatâhow did youâ?â
âYou left this,â he said, holding the phone out like it burned. âAt the library. Sunoo and Stella figured out how to track you. I came to check if you were okay.â
You stared at him. Your phone. His glasses. Your life. All colliding in one surreal moment. And then, quietly, Sunghoon added, âYour dad⌠heâs alright?â You nodded, still dumbstruck. âYeah. Yeah, just banged up. Heâs resting.â QA small, relieved breath escaped him. You took your phone slowly, your fingers brushing his, and suddenly every single message youâd sent Stella flashed before your eyes in a horror montage.
He had your phone.
He read your texts.
He knew.
You swallowed. âDid you⌠uh⌠seeâŚâ
He looked at you, eyes steady behind the lenses. Thenâjust the faintest quirk of his lips.
âYou have a really dramatic way of complimenting glasses,â he said.
You made a noise that could only be described as a muffled scream into your coffee cup. And Sunghoonâstoic, introverted Sunghoonâactually laughed. Soft and low.
But real. And it was worse than the glasses. It was so much worse.
You wanted to melt into the hospital bed and never be seen again. Just fully disappear. Cease to exist. Have your body donated to science and your soul banished to another timeline where you never sent those texts and Park Sunghoon neverâneverâsaw the words âsexy handwriting.â
But you were stuck here. In this room. With him. And the phone that had betrayed you.
You forced out a breath and tried to smile through your humiliation. âI was⌠under a lot of emotional distress. You know. Midterm season. Lack of sleep. Temporary delusion.â
Sunghoon raised an eyebrow. âYou wrote a three-message breakdown about my glasses before midterms even started.â
You blinked at him. âYou read that far?â
He hesitated. Too long. Then shrugged lightly, gaze flicking to the floor. âSunoo was reading out loud. I⌠couldnât stop him.â
You buried your face in your hands. âIâm going to die. Iâm just going to die right here and haunt this room forever.â
Sunghoon stayed quiet for a second.
Then he said, âI didnât hate it.â Your hands dropped from your face like youâd been electrocuted.
âWhat?â
He looked vaguely uncomfortable now, like the words had escaped before he could catch them. His fingers tugged at the zipper of his hoodie, eyes fixed on the floor. âThe texts. I didnât hate them.â You stared at him.
âNo oneâs ever said I looked like a⌠kdrama lead before,â he muttered. Your voice was barely above a whisper. âYou do, though.â
Silence stretched between you. Long and awkward and warm in a way that made your stomach flip. Finally, you cleared your throat. âSo⌠uh⌠thank you. For coming. Really. You didnât have to.â He glanced up again, eyes soft behind the glasses. âI wanted to.â
Your brain short-circuited again. Before either of you could say anything else, there was a knock at the door. A nurse poked her head in. âVisiting hours end in ten, guys.â
Sunghoon gave a quick nod. âRight. Iâll go.â He turned to you, pausing just before the door.
âText me when you get home?â he said, voice quiet. You blinked. âYou want me to text you?â He looked away again, almost shy now. âYeah. Just so I know youâre okay.â You nodded slowly. âOkay. I will.â He gave a little nod of his own, then slipped out the door. You stared after him, phone clutched in your hand, your entire body buzzing. And you didnât even care anymore that he saw your texts.
Because maybe⌠Maybe he didnât hate it.
The elevator doors slid shut with a quiet chime behind him. Sunghoon leaned back against the wall, hands in his pockets, the cold metal pressing into his spine as he stared blankly ahead.
He hadnât said much on the walk out of your room. He never did. Words werenât really his thingâthey always felt too heavy in his mouth, too slow to catch up to his thoughts. But somehow, tonight, theyâd slipped out easier than usual.
âI didnât hate them.â
âI wanted to.â
âText me when you get home.â
He replayed those three lines over and over in his head, each one more revealing than he was used to. More open. Vulnerable, even. It made his chest tighten and something in his stomach twist in a way he didnât totally understand. And then, before he could stop itâHis reflection in the elevator doors caught it first.
A smile. Small. Barely there. But real.
His own face surprised him for a second. Like the muscles had moved without permission. His brows drew together slightly as he looked away, lips twitching back into something neutral. It wasnât like him to smile over someone. But maybe⌠you werenât just someone. Maybe you were starting to be the exception. And he wasnât sure if that terrified himâor if it made him want to see you again even more.
The next morning, you were exhausted.
Youâd barely slept. Between your dad being stable (thank god), the hospital vending machine coffee that had no right being that strong, and the emotional rollercoaster of Park Sunghoon seeing your texts, your brain was absolutely fried.
And yet, there you wereâwalking into lecture half-dazed with a granola bar in one hand and your phone in the other, scanning the room instinctively.
Your eyes found him instantly.
And you nearly tripped over your own feet.
He was wearing the glasses again.
Same black zip-up. Head down, hair a little messier today. But the glasses were thereâslipping slightly down the bridge of his nose as he scribbled something in his notebook.
You froze for a second in the aisle, mid-step, like your brain blue-screened. People filtered around you, annoyed, but you didnât care. He had to know what he was doing. There was no way he didnât, not after reading your breakdown in full 4K resolution on your phone the night before.
You finally sat down, heart doing cartwheels in your chest, and tried not to glance back every ten seconds. But of course, your eyes betrayed you. You looked again.
And this time⌠he looked back.
Just a flicker of his eyes over the top of his notebook. A half-second longer than necessary. Then he turned away. But that half-second? It felt like it lasted hours. And even though you were 99% sure you were hallucinating everythingâYou swore he was smiling.
You: stella.
You: STELLA.
You: heâs wearing the glasses again.
You: I REPEAT. THE GLASSES. ARE. ON.
You: I am not well. I will not survive this class.
You: If I stop texting itâs because Iâve passed away from â¨visual overstimulationâ¨
You: and I look like a sewer rat today WHY is the universe like this
You were hunched over your phone like it was sacred scripture, thumbs flying, your screen dimmed just enough to look sneaky, but bright enough to see the disaster you were creating in real time.
You didnât notice the presence behind you until it shifted. The air moved. Subtle.
ââŚYou text like youâre narrating a crisis.â
You froze. No. No no no no no. That voice. You turned slowly. And there he was. Park Sunghoon. Reading your texts. Looking entirely unbothered. Glasses still on.
You stared up at him, every cell in your body internally combusting one by one.
âIâuhââ
He blinked down at you, face unreadable, then raised an eyebrow. âSewer rat?â You opened your mouth. Nothing came out. And then the corner of his mouth tugged up. Just slightly.
âYou look fine,â he said, voice quiet. And just like that, your brain did the only logical thing it could in that moment. It short-circuited. Completely.
You were still staring at him.
Heâd walked awayâalready halfway to his seat like nothing happenedâbut you were frozen in place, still clutching your phone, eyes wide, brain buffering like it needed a software update.
He said you looked fine. He said you looked fine.
You hadnât even washed your hair last night. You were pretty sure there was highlighter on your cheekbone that didnât belong there. Your socks didnât match. And this manâthis walking iceberg of introversionâlooked you dead in the eye and said you looked fine.
Your fingers finally remembered how to move.
You: STELLA
You: HE SAW MY TEXTS
You: AND THEN SAID I LOOKED âFINEâ
You: STELLA I AM NOT OK
You: AM I HALLUCINATING???
You: IS THIS FLIRTING??? OR IS HE JUST⌠NICE???
Stella: whatâs the difference
Stella: actually nvm HE CALLED YOU FINE BYE
Stella: u need to marry him IMMEDIATELY
You bit your lip, trying to suppress the dumb grin threatening to take over your entire face. You were not going to smile like a maniac in class. Not in front of him. You looked up. And immediately made eye contact with him. He was already watching you.
Not in an obvious way. But he hadnât even opened his laptop yet. Just sitting there, elbow on the desk, head tilted slightly like he was waiting for your next move. You blinked. He looked away first. But the corner of his mouth twitched again. And this timeâyou smiled.
It was Friday night, and your dorm smelled like kettle popcorn, cheap wine coolers, and the faint singe of a burnt microwave pizza. Stella was sprawled across her bed, wearing fuzzy socks and eyeliner like she was going to war. Sunoo sat cross-legged on the floor with a giant bag of sour gummy worms and a pen tucked behind his ear like he was the host of Jeopardy.
You were halfway through a lukewarm sip of grape soda when Sunoo clapped his hands together like a villain hatching a plan.
âOkay,â he said dramatically, pointing the pen at you. âWhat ifâplot twistâwe invite Sunghoon to trivia night?â You almost choked. âWhat?â
He wiggled his eyebrows. âYou heard me. Tall, pale, wears glasses, makes your heart do backflipsâthat Sunghoon.â You immediately waved him off, face heating up. âNo, no, no. Trivia night is sacred. Itâs for us, and our weird little brains. He doesnât even talk during normal group work. You think heâs gonna scream out âSwitzerlandâ during world geography?â
âExactly why it would be hilarious,â Sunoo grinned. âPlus, he already likes you.â
âIâhe doesnâtââ
Stella looked up from her phone and cut in, âHe said you looked fine when you looked like youâd just rolled out of a 2009 Tumblr grunge blog. Thatâs basically a confession in Sunghoon language.â
You buried your face in your pillow. âI canât. Heâll say no. Heâll probably run in the opposite direction and drop the course.â Sunoo shrugged. âSo? At least then weâll know heâs terrified of fun and allergic to joy.â There was a beat of silence. Then Stella said, âOr maybeâheâll come.â You slowly peeked over the pillow. Sunoo smirked. âWanna find out?â You didnât say yes.But you did start typing.
You stared at his text reply for a solid ten seconds.
Sunghoon: I donât think Iâm a trivia night type of person.
Ugh. Of course he wasnât. He was the study-in-silence, read-complicated-books-for-fun, looks-too-good-in-glasses type of person. You chewed your lip and typed back.
You: itâs not that serious!! itâs just a fun little thing!! u can even sit in the corner and judge us in silence like u always do
You: pls sunghoon
You: pls pls pls
You: Iâll owe u forever
You: like forever forever
You: like I will never ask u for anything again ever unless itâs for help opening a jar or fighting off a ghost
You: pls
The little typing dots popped up. Disappeared. Came back.
Sunghoon: âŚwhat time.
You let out a squeal so loud that Sunoo jumped and flung a gummy worm at your forehead.
âI take it he said yes?â he deadpanned. You grinned. âHe said yes.â Stella threw her hands up. âTHE POWER YOU HOLD.â Sunoo gasped, dramatically pressing his hand to his chest. âShould I prep an extra trivia round titled âThings That Make Y/N Weak in the Kneesâ? Number one: Park Sunghoon in glasses.â You grabbed a pillow and launched it at him, still grinning like a complete idiot. Trivia night just got a lot more dangerous.
The first round of trivia began, and you were already regretting your life choices.
Sunoo had been insistent about the rules. âIf you get a question wrong, you take a shot of grape soju. Itâs fun, itâs fair, and itâs how we build character.â
At first, you thought you could handle it. You werenât a lightweight, and you could definitely stomach a little soju. But after one wrong answer, you could feel the heat of the alcohol creeping into your chest, and that was when you realized: This was going to be a disaster.
The first question was easy enough, something about ancient history, but you got it wrong anyway. You were too distracted, trying to avoid glancing at Sunghoon, who was sitting quietly in the corner, eyes occasionally flicking to your teamâs answers.
âLooks like youâve got a shot coming your way,â Sunoo said with a dramatic sigh, leaning back in his chair. âYou know the drill.â
You took a deep breath and grabbed the small shot glass filled with the mysteriously purple liquid. You could feel Sunghoonâs eyes on youâprobably the first time you were actually hyperaware of his gaze. Your fingers shook slightly as you raised the glass.
âTo ancient history,â you muttered, making a face before knocking it back in one go.
The burn was immediate. Grape soju was sweet but deceptively strong, and you felt it hit the back of your throat like a truck. You immediately slammed the glass down, half-choking, trying to ignore the laughter from Sunoo and Stella.
âAlright, next question!â Sunoo was practically bouncing in his seat, enjoying your pain. âWhatâs the capital ofâŚ?â
But you barely heard him. You were too focused on not dying from the aftertaste of the soju. You were about to breathe a sigh of relief whenâ
âUh, Y/N,â Sunghoon said softly, his voice cutting through the noise. You snapped your head to look at him, a little too fast, probably. âHuh?â He was still staring at his phone, but there was a flicker of something behind his glasses. âYou missed your answer to the last question. It was âRome.ââ
You blinked at him. âWait, really? Youâre sure?â He didnât look up, but his lips twitched. âYeah. Iâm sure.â
âWell,â you muttered, âI guess that means more soju for me.â You swore you caught the faintest, most reluctant smile from Sunghoon as he turned his attention back to the trivia board. DBut you were too busy silently dying from the soju to care about that.
Sunoo stood abruptly, grabbing his tote bag with a dramatic groan. âOkay, I love you all, but I have to go deal with my stupid brother who just tried to microwave a fork. Again.â
âThatâs the third time this month,â Stella muttered.
âI know!â Sunoo wailed, already halfway out the door. âNatural selection is right there, but he keeps surviving!â Stella stood up not long after, stretching with an exaggerated yawn. âWell, I should probably head out too. I, uh⌠left my straightener on. I think.â
You blinked. âWhat? I thought you unplugged it?â Stella smiled sweetly, eyes flicking between you and Sunghoon. âHmm, did I? Guess Iâll go find out.â
She was gone before you could even respond. Now it was just you and Sunghoon. Alone. In a room that felt way too quiet all of a sudden.
You turned slowly to look at him. He was just sitting there, sipping water, looking completely unbothered. Glasses slightly fogged up from the warmth of the room. Zip-up hoodie half unzipped.
You, meanwhile, were sweating through your soul. You stood up too fast. Way too fast. The room tilted. And then, everything spun.
The last thing you saw was his eyes widen in slow-motion before your knees buckled and you collapsedâRight into him. You werenât exactly the type of girl he expected to pass out on him. But there you were. Full dead weight. Head against his chest, breath shallow, skin warm. His arms had instinctively wrapped around you before you could hit the floor, but now he was just⌠holding you. And trying very hard not to panic.
âY/N?â he said softly, shaking your shoulder. âY/Nâhey. Are you okay?â No response. You just⌠mumbled something unintelligible and curled in a little closer. Sunghoon blinked.
His heart was doing a weird stuttering thing. He didnât like it.
You smelled like peach lotion and grape soju. Your hair was brushing his jaw. He was very aware of how close your face was to his.
He exhaled slowly, adjusting his grip so you were slumped more comfortably against his side. Then he looked around helplessly, muttering to himself.
âThis is what I get for showing up to trivia night.â Still, he didnât push you off. Didnât move.
In fact, he pulled his hoodie off and draped it around your shoulders, just in case you were cold. He was still holding you when you stirred a few minutes later. And he hated that part of him hoped you wouldnât move. Not just yet.
Sunghoon didnât know what to do. He wasnât exactly trained in what to do when a girl passes out in your arms and also smells really good and your heart wonât stop doing weird gymnastics. So, naturally, he did the first logical thing:
He picked you upâawkwardly, carefully, like you were made of glassâand marched straight down the hall to Stellaâs room. He knocked twice. Then again. Louder.
Stella opened the door a crack, chewing a piece of gum, her brows lifting when she saw you slumped half-conscious in his arms, wrapped in his hoodie like a weird little burrito.
âSheâs fine,â Stella said, not even hesitating. Sunghoon blinked. âShe fainted.â
âYeah, from like three sips of soju. She does this. Lightheaded. Dramatic. A menace.â Stella leaned against the doorframe and popped her gum. âJust lay her down on the couch, sheâll wake up in like five minutes and scream about missing a skincare step.â
ââŚAre you serious?â
âDead serious.â
Sunghoon looked down at you. Your lashes fluttered slightly, your cheek pressed against his chest, breath slow and even.
âSheâs drooling,â he muttered under his breath. Stella grinned. âYep. Sounds about right. Before he could argue more, she closed the door with a lazy, âYou got this, lover boy.â He just stood there for a second, deadpan. Then turned and made his way back to the living room, still carrying you like you were a drunk kitten. He carefully knelt by the couch and laid you down, adjusting a pillow beneath your head and slipping off your shoes so you wouldnât wake up with sore feet. You looked⌠soft like that. Peaceful. Lips parted slightly, hands curled near your chest, still wrapped in his hoodie.
Sunghoon sat back on his heels and sighed.
âThis is insane,â he muttered. But he didnât move away just yet.
You let out a tiny groan, barely awake, before slowly turning over on the couchâand promptly rolled right off. It all happened in slow motion for Sunghoon. One second you were peacefully drooling on the pillow, the next your body was halfway to the hardwood floor with all the grace of a sleepy baby deer.
âShitâwaitââ
He caught you just in time, arms shooting out to stop your head from bonking against the floor. Your face smushed into his hoodie again, limbs tangled awkwardly, and your eyes fluttered halfway open in a dazed blink.
ââŚmm?â
Sunghoon didnât say anything. He just sat there on the floor beside the couch, exhaling sharply as he tried to situate you better. With zero idea what else to doâand absolutely no desire to wake Stella againâhe gently shifted you, easing your head onto his lap.
You hummed softly, like it was the most natural thing in the world, and curled in closer, like his leg was your designated pillow. Still barely awake. Still clearly unaware of everything happening. Sunghoon froze. Hands hovering. Brain static.
You looked so⌠small like this. Fragile. Sleepy and soft and completely unfiltered. The hoodie he gave you slipped down your shoulder, revealing the curve of your collarbone and the faintest shimmer of glitter from your makeup. A piece of hair stuck to your cheek. He moved it before he could stop himself.
He shouldâve moved you back onto the couch. He shouldâve gotten up and left. But he didnât. Instead, he stayed still. Letting your breathing settle against his leg. Letting the room fall into a warm, weird quiet. And when you shifted again, murmuring something incomprehensible and curling your fingers around the fabric of his jeansâhe didnât say a word. Just stared down at you, the corner of his mouth twitching into the smallest, most confused smile.
The first thing you registered was warmth.
Not just the hoodieâthough that was still wrapped snugly around your shouldersâbut something heavier. Solid. Comforting. Something that smelled like clean laundry and mint and the faintest hint of boy.
And then you blinked your eyes open. Sunghoon. Your head was no longer just on his lap. You were in his lap. Full-on wrapped up in his arms, tucked against his chest like it was a survival instinct. One of his hands rested loosely on your back, the other curled by your waist, his breathing deep and steady, lips parted just slightly.
You didnât move. You didnât even breathe.
Oh my god. You were going to die. Actually die.
You could see the headline now: University Student Spontaneously Combusts from Proximity to Hot Introvert in Glasses.
You slowly peeled yourself out of his grip, as delicately as a bomb squad diffusing a mine, heart slamming in your chest the entire time. Somehow, miraculously, he didnât stir. He just mumbled something low and incoherent in his sleep and adjusted slightly, brows furrowing for a second before settling back into what looked like the deepest sleep known to mankind.
You stared for a second. Just a second. Because what the hell. Then you bolted. You rushed down the hallway in socked feet, practically slammed open Stellaâs bedroom door andâShe didnât even look up from her phone.
âI know,â she said, sipping her iced coffee. âAnd yes, I took a picture.â You froze. âWhat?!â Stella turned her phone around to show you the screen.
There it was. A full high-def, heart-attack-inducing image of you curled in Sunghoonâs lap, his arms around you, both of you asleep on the floor like a goddamn drama couple.
âI hate you,â you whispered.
âNo, you donât,â she grinned. âNow go wash your face. You drooled on his hoodie.â
You groaned and rubbed your face, trying to wipe off the secondhand embarrassment still clinging to your skin.
âAlso,â you muttered, already backing out of Stellaâs room, âsend me those pictures. All of them. I need to know what level of unhinged I looked like.â Stella smirked around her straw. âOh, babe. You looked whipped.â You pointed at her dramatically. âI will delete your contact.â
âYou wonât.â
You didnât respond, just turned and padded back down the hallway, heart still thumping like a drumline in your ears. You were about to sneak into the kitchen and grab some water to cool yourself down when you paused in the doorway of the living room.
And saw him .Awake.
Sitting on the couch now, hoodie still half-draped on him, hair tousled from sleep, glasses slightly askew. His eyes were on you. You froze. He blinked slowly. âYou drool when you sleep.â Your soul left your body.
âNo, I donât,â you said way too quickly, straightening up like that would somehow erase the last twenty-four hours.
âYou do.â He yawned into his hand. âA lot.â You opened your mouth. Then closed it. Then opened it again. âWhy are you awake?â
âWhy are you yelling?â
âIâm notââ you paused. Cleared your throat. âI wasnât yelling.â He leaned his head against the back of the couch, eyes squinting like he was still somewhere between dream and reality. âYou asked Stella to send the pictures.â
Oh god. He heard that? You stared at him, eyes wide. âDid youâdid you hear everything?â
He looked at you. Quiet. Amused. And thenâjust barelyâhe smiled.
âI heard enough.â You stared at him, completely still.
âI heard enough,â he said again, softer this time, like he was trying not to laugh. The corners of his mouth twitched, and suddenly you couldnât remember a single word in any human language.
âIââ You blinked. âYou were supposed to be asleep.â
âI was.â He stretched a little, arms lifting above his head, hoodie riding up just enough to flash a glimpse of pale skin before he dropped them again. âThen I wasnât. Mainly because someone kept squirming in her sleep like she was fighting demons.â You smacked your hand against your face. âOh my god. Oh my god.â
âYou also talk in your sleep, apparently.â
âI do not.â He nodded solemnly, glasses slipping slightly down the bridge of his nose. âSomething about my glasses being your downfall? Should I be worried?â Your jaw dropped.
You knew that message was on your phone. You knew he saw it.
âIâm gonna throw myself out the window,â you said, already backing away. But before you could flee into the depths of your embarrassment, he tilted his head and looked at youâreally looked at you.
âI didnât hate it,â he said. You froze.
âWhat?â
He shrugged. âYou sleeping on me.â Your heart tripped over itself. His voice was calm. Still low and reserved like always. But something about the way he said itâthe almost casual, sleepy honestyâsent your brain into freefall.
ââŚAre you still half asleep?â you asked cautiously.
âMaybe.â
You swallowed, trying not to combust.
âWell,â you muttered, fidgeting with your hoodie sleeve, âgood. Because if you were fully awake, Iâd probably be more embarrassed.â
He smiled again. And this time, it reached his eyes.
You didnât know what to say after that.
Because what could you say when the boy youâd been lowkey (okay, highkey) obsessed with just told you he didnât hate having you wrapped around him like a human blanket?
Nothing. Thatâs what.
So you just stood there, blinking at him, hoodie sleeves pulled over your hands like theyâd protect you from the way he was still looking at you. Like you were interesting. Like he wasnât just quiet by nature but quiet because he was thinking and you were the subject.
You were fully prepared to melt into the floor.
âWell,â you finally said, clearing your throat. âI should⌠probably wash my face. And, like, process⌠everything.â
âOkay.â
âRight.â
You turned, took one step toward the hallwayâand then stopped and looked over your shoulder.
ââŚAre you gonna pretend this didnât happen later?â He raised an eyebrow. âThe part where you passed out?â
âThe part where I passed out on you.â He paused for a second, then stood up slowly, stretching again. The early morning light caught on the curve of his cheek, his glasses slightly fogged from sleep, hoodie still draped over his frame like it belonged thereâlike you had put it there.
âNo,â he said simply. âIâm not pretending.â Then he walked past you, brushing shoulders as he headed toward the kitchen like he didnât just ruin your whole ability to breathe.
You just stood there. Frozen. And the worst (or best?) part? You were grinning. Like an idiot.
You made it to the bathroom on autopilot.
Face = burning.
Heart = sprinting a marathon.
Soul = temporarily vacated your body.
You splashed cold water on your face like you were trying to reset your entire nervous system. Not pretending. Those two words echoed in your brain like a broken record. Not âitâs fineâ or âdonât worry about it.â Not âthat was weirdâ or âforget it ever happened.â He wasnât brushing it off. He saw youâdrooly, embarrassing, possibly cuddlyâand didnât want to pretend.
You were doomed.
You patted your face dry and stared at your reflection. Your cheeks were flushed, lips puffy from sleep, hair a mess from the couch. And stillâstillâyou were smiling like a middle-schooler who just got asked to dance at prom.
You pulled out your phone with shaking hands.
Me: stella. stella i think im going into cardiac arrest
Me: he was awake. AWAKE. HE HEARD EVERYTHING.
Me: AND THEN SAID HE DIDNâT HATE IT
Me: AND THEN SAID HES NOT GONNA PRETEND IT DIDNT HAPPEN
Me: DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE EMERGENCY
The dots popped up almost instantly.
Stella: BREATHEEEE
Stella: girl idk whether to plan your wedding or your funeral
Stella: either way Iâm bringing snacks
You snorted and shook your head, trying not to slide down the wall in emotional defeat. Then came another message.
Stella: also you left your lip gloss on the couch and he picked it up and put it in his pocket
Stella: do with that what you will
You froze. Lip gloss? In his pocket? You stared at your reflection again. Yep. Definitely time to plan your funeral.
The days after the project wrapped up had been an emotional rollercoaster.
Youâd convinced yourself Sunghoon would slip back into his quiet, introverted world. That after everything, after all the moments you thought meant something, heâd go back to avoiding you and staying distant like before. You had tried to prepare yourself for itâconvincing yourself it was fine, that you could handle it, that it was just the project that brought you together and nothing more.
But deep down, the idea that heâd stop talking to you again made your stomach twist. And you couldnât shake the thought: Maybe it was just a one-time thing. Maybe I was just his partner. And now thereâs no more reason for him to even look at me. You avoided checking your phone. You couldnât bring yourself to. It was easier to stay in the quiet, heart-aching limbo where you could pretend nothing had changed.
But then, as you sat on your couch in your hoodie and sweatpants, watching a rerun of a show you didnât even like to distract yourself, you heard a soft knock at the door. You froze, heart skipping a beat. You glanced at the clock. No way. He couldnâtâŚ
But when you opened the door, there he was. Sunghoon. Standing on your doorstep, with one hand nervously holding a single, bright white flower. For a second, you couldnât breathe. His usual quietness surrounded him like a second skin, but this time, there was something else in his eyes. Something unreadable, but so undeniably there that it made your heart pound.
âHey,â he started, clearing his throat, his voice softer than usual. âUh, I⌠I know schoolâs over, but, uh⌠I wanted to ask⌠if youâd go out with me. Like, outside of the project. Since, yâknow, we donât have anything else left to do.â
You blinked at him, unsure whether to laugh or cry or pass out from the sheer shock of what was happening.
Sunghoon, Park Sunghoon, the quiet boy with glasses, the one who you thought would never speak to you again, was standing there with a flower, asking you out. And for a moment, it felt like time froze.
âAre you⌠serious?â you whispered, your voice barely audible.
He nodded, looking both shy and unsure of himself, a far cry from the usually reserved Sunghoon. âYeah. I donât⌠really know how to do this, but⌠Iâd like to take you out. If you want.â
Your heart stopped for a second. You wanted to say yes. You wanted to say of course, but your mind kept catching up with your racing heart, trying to process everything in the last few seconds. And then, finally, you spoke.
âYes.â
His eyes softened as he offered the flower to you, the faintest smile tugging at his lips.
âYeah?â he asked quietly.
âYes,â you repeated, your voice more confident now. âYes, Iâll go out with you.â
The air between you seemed to hum with a sudden, undeniable connection. You could feel your cheeks heating up, but this time, it wasnât from embarrassmentâit was from the undeniable realization that maybe, just maybe, you were exactly where you were supposed to be.
You couldnât stop smiling.
You tried. You really did. But every time you looked down at the flower in your handâa little imperfect, probably plucked from someoneâs front lawn or a park bushâyou felt it again. That ridiculous, fluttery warmth curling in your chest, refusing to go away.
Sunghoon asked you out.
And not because he had to. Not because of a project or a group grade or a seating chart. But because he wanted to.
You were still holding the flower like it was made of glass, like if you squeezed too hard it might vanish. It was stupid how your brain was short-circuiting over one boy and one flower and one quiet sentenceâbut youâd been waiting for this. Hoping for it. Fantasizing about it, if you were being honest.
And now it was real.
âYouâre staring,â Sunghoon said beside you, voice low and a little amused. You startled, looking up at him with wide eyes. âWas not.â
âYou were.â You looked away, pretending to examine the sidewalk, the cars, the cloudsâanything but the smug little smirk on his face. âOkay, maybe a little.â
He didnât say anything back right away. Just walked beside you, hands shoved into his pockets, hoodie sleeves pushed up to his elbows. He was wearing those glasses againâof course he wasâand you didnât know if it was on purpose or if this was just who he was now, but either way: you were suffering.
âYou like the flower?â he asked after a pause, like he was trying not to sound like he cared about the answer too much. You looked at it again, smiling softly. âI love it. Iâm naming it after you.â
ââŚYouâre naming a flower after me?â
âYup. Park Sunghoon the Second. A little awkward, but sweet once you get to know him.â He let out the smallest laugh. A real one.
And your heart did a front flip.
There was a silence after thatâcomfortable, not awkward. One of those rare quiets where everything feels calm. You werenât rushing to fill the space, and neither was he. You were just walking, side by side, with nowhere to be except here.
Finally, Sunghoon said, âSo⌠Friday. 7:00. You and me?â
You turned to him, grinning. âItâs a date.â
And this time, he smiled first.
Sunghoon was stressed.
Not the obvious kind, either. No pacing, no nervous rambling, no frantic texting. Noâhis kind of stress came in the form of sitting completely still on the edge of his bed, staring at the one (1) decent shirt he owned and thinking, Is this what people wear on dates? Do people even wear shirts on dates? What if I show up and sheâs wearing something fancy and I look like a middle schooler going to church?
He hadnât even put the shirt on yet. It was just⌠there. Staring back at him with judgment. Or maybe that was just his own reflection in the mirror. Either way, he was spiraling. Silently. But thoroughly. Meanwhile, on the other side of town, it was chaos.
âOkay, gloss or matte?â you shouted, holding up two lip products like your life depended on it.
âGloss!â Sunoo said immediately. âItâs date night. You want him to think youâre kissable.â Stella raised a brow. âDo you want him to think that, though?â
You stared into the mirror, hair half curled, blush perfectly pink on your cheeks. ââŚYes.â
They both screamed.
The room looked like a war zoneâoutfits scattered across your bed, makeup brushes covering the desk, heels and flats and boots thrown in different corners like a mini tornado had passed through your closet.
Sunoo held up your tiny pastel pink purse. âThis one. Itâs giving soft girl danger.â
âI second that,â Stella said, adjusting your curling wand temperature like she was your personal glam squad. âOkay, close your eyes, Iâm doing the final spray.â You did as told, heart pounding with a mixture of nerves and excitement.
This wasnât just any date. This was Sunghoon.
And somewhere across town, Sunghoon was now staring at himself in the mirror, glasses on, hair tousled, that same black zip-up from the library night over a clean tee. He looked⌠okay. But he felt like imploding. What if I say the wrong thing? What if she regrets saying yes? What ifâ
His phone buzzed.
Stella: She looks insane. You better bring flowers. Or I will.
He blinked. Then slowly got up, grabbed his keys, and mumbled to himself, ââŚI need to find a flower.â
You were ready.
Or⌠as ready as someone who had changed outfits three times, nearly cried over a smudged winged liner, and threatened to cancel the entire date if her highlighter wasnât even on both cheeks could be.
âOkay,â you breathed, staring at your reflection like she was someone else. âI think Iâm good.â
Sunoo clapped his hands once. âYouâre more than good. Youâre edible.â
Stella popped her head back in from the hallway. âSunghoonâs outside. I just saw him through the peephole. Heâs standing like heâs afraid of the air.â You ran to the door, then paused. âWait. Do I look like Iâm trying too hard?â
âYes,â they both said.
âGood,â you grinned, grabbing your purse.
You stepped outside and there he wasâhands shoved in his pockets, hair slightly damp like heâd just showered, wearing that same black zip-up he always wore⌠but there was something different tonight. A tension in his shoulders, the way his gaze immediately lifted when he heard the door open.
And he was holding something. A flower. Just one.
Small, a little uneven, probably stolen from a nearby bushâbut it made your heart lurch anyway.
âFor you,â he said, holding it out awkwardly, like he was half-expecting you to laugh at him. Instead, you smiled so wide your cheeks hurt. âYouâre lucky Iâm weak for stolen flowers.â He huffed a quiet laugh under his breath and looked down. âYou lookâŚâ
You waited, watching his face turn a little pink as he fumbled for a word.
ââŚDifferent,â he settled on. âGood different.â You gave him a teasing smile. âIâll take it.âHe blinked at you for a second longer, like he was trying to memorize the way your hair curled or the way your earrings swayed every time you moved.
Then he opened the car door for you. And just like that, the nerves melted away. You werenât just you anymoreâyou were the girl Sunghoon came to pick up, with a flower in your hand and butterflies in your stomach. And you had a feeling this night was going to ruin youâin the best way.
Going on a date with Park Sunghoon had always been one of the fake little scenarios you made up in class when you were supposed to be listening.
It was a regular thing, honestly. Youâd be halfway through pretending to take notes on cognitive development, and suddenly your brain would short-circuit and drift off into âWhat if he asked me out?â territory. Maybe heâd slide you a note during lecture. Maybe heâd wait after class. Maybe heâd say something completely out of character like âIâve been watching you for a while now.â (That one made you cringe and swoon.)
You never thought it would actually happen. But now here you wereâsitting in his passenger seat, clutching a slightly-wilted flower in your lap like it was an Oscar trophy, wearing the outfit you and your best friends had screamed over not even an hour ago.
And Park Sunghoon? He was right next to you. Driving. Quiet. Focused. Glancing over at you every so often like he couldnât believe this was happening either.
You tried not to stare at his hands on the wheel. Or the way his glasses slid down the bridge of his nose every time he checked the mirror. Or the vein on his arm that popped ever so slightly when he turned.
It was weird. Surreal. Like youâd stepped into your own daydream. Except this time, it wasnât just in your head.
You didnât know Sunghoon was that rich.
Like, you knew he dressed nice. Quiet luxury vibes. Always in simple but suspiciously well-fitted clothes, like someone who didnât want attention but still made people look. You knew he had a certain air about himâput-together, unbothered, kind of mysterious in that he definitely has secrets way. But nothing prepared you for this.
The restaurant he brought you to wasnât just fancyâit was the kind of place that didnât even have prices on the menu. The kind where water came in a crystal bottle and the waiters bowed when they spoke to you. The lighting was soft, the chairs were plush, and the bread basket looked like a Pinterest mood board.
You sat there, blinking around like a tourist while Sunghoon just casually sipped his water, completely unfazed. You leaned in across the table, whispering, âDo you⌠own this place?â
He blinked. âNo.â
ââŚBut like, do you know the owner?â
He paused. âKind of.â You stared at him. He stared back. You narrowed your eyes. âPark Sunghoon. What is your life?â He shrugged lightly, lips twitching like he was fighting a smirk. âNormal.â You looked down at the gold-trimmed menu.
Normal, your ass.
Your whole life youâd been daydreaming about going on a date with Sunghoon, and neverânot onceâdid the fantasy include sitting in a place that probably had a Michelin star and a dress code for its bread.
And yet somehow, even with all the fancy things around you, the thing making your heart race was still him.
Still the way he looked at you when you werenât looking. Still the way he asked, quietly, âIs this okay? I wasnât sure what kind of place youâd like.â You smiled, cheeks warm. âThis is⌠perfect.â
And when he relaxed just a littleâjust enough for his shoulders to drop and his fingers to uncurl from the edge of the tableâyou knew.
âI really like you,â Sunghoon said, voice soft and a little shaky.Your heart stopped.
âI mean, really like you. Youâre⌠youâre so pretty itâs hard to look at you sometimes. And I
Iâve actually liked you this whole time. Even back in class, when you wouldnât stop talking and I was trying not to laugh. I didnât know how to say anything. But I want to now. I want to say everything. I want to spend my life with you.â
And thenâhe leaned in. His hand brushed against yours. You leaned in too, heart thudding, lips parting as your eyes fluttered shutâAnd just as his lips touched yoursâThe entire restaurant erupted into applause.
Chairs scraped, people stood, a waiter dabbed his eyes with a napkin. Someone in the back shouted, âTrue love is real!â The pianist transitioned into a soft romantic ballad. Rose petals fell from somewhereâsomewhere.
You were glowing. Floating. Kissing Park Sunghoon, the boy youâd once been too scared to talk to, while the world quite literally clapped around you.
âYn?â a voice said.
You blinked.
âYn, are you⌠there?â
You snapped out of it, back in your seat, staring at your half-eaten appetizer. Sunghoon was looking at you, head tilted. âYou zoned out for a solid two minutes. Did the salmon offend you or something?â
You blinked again, cheeks warming. âIâuh. No. Sorry. Just thinking.â
âAbout what?â
You quickly took a sip of water. âNothing important.â
Just, you know. The fake proposal-level confession and restaurant-wide standing ovation that just happened in your head. No big deal. Meanwhile, Sunghoon went back to eating his food like he wasnât the main character in your delusions.
And you sat there, trying not to smile. Because, who knows? Maybe the real version wasnât that far off.
For a normal person, this date would kind of be boring.
Like, objectively speakingâSunghoon wasnât exactly chatting it up. He wasnât telling wild stories or cracking dumb jokes or even attempting to carry the conversation when it hit a lull. He was quiet. Subtle. His responses were short, sometimes just nods or hums. There was a moment when the silence between courses stretched so long, you were certain even the waiter felt secondhand awkwardness. But somehow⌠you didnât hate it.
Maybe because even in the quiet, Sunghoon felt present. His gaze stayed on you like you were something worth listening to. Like your rambles about Sunooâs latest crush and Stellaâs failed DIY bookshelf actually mattered. He wasnât loud, but he was tuned inâlike you were the only thing in the room worth paying attention to.
Still, halfway through the meal, you sat back with a crooked smile and said, âYou know, I think Iâve spoken more in the last thirty minutes than you have all semester.â Sunghoon glanced up from his plate, blinking behind those stupidly attractive glasses. âThatâs probably true.â You narrowed your eyes. âAre you ever gonna say anything that makes my heart race?â
A beat. Then, casually, without even looking up: âYouâre really pretty.â You choked on your drink. He didnât even flinchâjust kept cutting his steak, a small twitch at the corner of his lips giving him away.
You stared at him. âYou menace.â
He finally looked up, meeting your gaze. âYou asked.â
And suddenly the quiet didnât feel boring at all. It felt dangerous. Like every second he wasnât saying something, he was thinking itâand one day heâd say it all at once and knock you flat.
You blinked, caught off guard. âWait, so you actually think Iâm pretty? Whatâs pretty about me?â you asked, a bit of teasing lacing your voice. You were trying to play it cool, but your heart was already picking up pace, fingers fidgeting with the edge of your napkin. Sunghoon, however, didnât skip a beat. He set his fork down, his gaze lifting slowly from his plate to meet yours. There was no hesitation, no second-guessing, just that steady, almost unsettling focus on you.
âEverything.â
Your breath caught. You werenât expecting that. The way he said it, so simply, so sure, like there wasnât a single thing about you that didnât deserve to be admiredâit hit you right in the chest.
It was one of those moments where your entire world seemed to pause, just for a second, and all you could hear was your own heartbeat and the soft clink of silverware around you.
You didnât know what to say. How could you? Youâd spent so long trying to work up the courage to even talk to him, to make him notice you. And now he was here, not just noticing, but seeing everythingâand everything meant more than just your smile or your laugh or the way your hair fell over your shoulders. It meant the little things, the things you never thought anyone would care to notice.
You swallowed hard, your voice almost a whisper. âSunghoonâŚâ His expression softened just a little. âYouâve always been⌠easy to notice.â And just like that, the room felt smaller, like the two of you were the only ones in it.
For a second, you forgot about everythingâabout the quiet dinner, about the fact that Sunghoon had been so silent most of the night. All that mattered was this moment. The way you had finally caught his attention. The way heâd fallen.
Sunghoonâs voice broke the silence, soft and unassuming, but there was a certain edge to it. âWhat about me?â he asked, looking at you with that same steady gaze. âWhy do you like me?â
The question hung in the air, and you felt your pulse quicken. He was asking you about him. Sunghoon, the person who had always been so distant, so hard to read, was now waiting for you to give him an answer. An answer that felt so much more complicated than you had ever prepared for.
You shifted in your seat, suddenly feeling a little too exposed under his gaze. âIâI donât know,â you stammered, trying to find the words. âItâs just⌠from the moment I saw you, I knew you were different. You didnât talk much, but you⌠felt like you were always thinking, you know? Like there was something more behind the quiet.â
You leaned forward, trying to get your words right. âAnd it wasnât just because you were⌠well, you. It was the way you didnât try to fit in, the way you didnât care what people thought. Youâre⌠real. And, I guess, Iâve always liked people who donât hide who they are.â
Sunghoon stared at you, those eyes of his intense, almost searching, like he was trying to figure out whether you were being completely honest or not. And then he sighed softly, as if something in him had relaxed just a little.
âAnd when did you start liking me?â he asked again, this time more quietly.
You thought about it for a moment, trying to pin down when the shift had happenedâthe moment when you stopped just noticing him and started feeling the things you couldnât control. âI think it was when you⌠when you let me in. I never thought youâd actually be willing to work with me on that project. And even though you barely said anything, you still⌠listened. That was when I realized I had feelings for you.â
Sunghoon let out a small, almost imperceptible chuckle. âI never thought Iâd be the one to make someone feel this way.â His lips curled up in a faint smile, something almost shy about it.
There it was again. The softest vulnerability peeking through his usually composed exterior. And in that moment, you knew it wasnât just you who had fallen.
He had fallen harder.
Enhypen campus series | part 2
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*heavys voice* entire team is BABIES!!!!!
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i hope a crow finds its way to me<3
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Why do people tell introverts to be more talkative when nobody tells extroverts to shut the fuck up
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To the people who get impressed by the smallest sarcastic comment. I am people.
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I miss the version of us that stayed up talking about nothing and everything. When your name on my screen felt like home
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#funny memes#humor#lol#haha#best memes#dark memes#dank memes#funny#boop#memes#funny cats#cat#cats of tumblr#cute cats#kitty#kitties#kittens#cute animals#pets#relatable memes#relatable#shower thoughts#true story#introverts#adulthood
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Shoutout to all the people who...
Are always talked over in group settings
Rehearse what they are going to say loads of times in their head and still end-up with their words coming out jumbled
Take longer to process jokes/people's speech
Just get brushed-off when they ask people to repeat their jokes
Always feel like they are seen as an acquaintance rather than a best friend by others
Find parties overwhelming and feel boring for preferring nights in
Feel lonely but also don't know how to go about making friends as an adult
Feel embarrassed/ashamed for not having friends
#mental health#mental illness#sadcore#loneliest#alone with my thoughts#feeling alone#you are not alone#social anxiety#introvert#actually autistic#unmasking autism#autism#neurodiversity#asd#autistic#actually autism#shoutout
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#infj#literature#prose#chaotic academic aesthetic#bookquotes#autumn#studyblr#coffeeandseasons#daily quotes#dark acadamia aesthetic#rantings#sorry for the rant#rant post#personal rant#ranting#infj thoughts#infj personality#infj woman#infj feelings#mbti infj#infj things#introvert#delulu#dululu#delusional#let me live in my delusions
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